oh shit. dx's msn nick is scaring the hell out of me. 38 days left to A levels. ok, typing that made me suddenly want to mug now. so i guess i have to end here, hahahaha

ok i think i got over my prelims. so i think im ready to talk about it now. i've thought it all out, lying in my bed on friday night, unable to sleep until 4am. i think god wants me to mug more, i know that sometimes im really quite slack. if i want to do well, i should devote every waking hour to mugging, and not just waste time chatting on the phone or thinking about my lost love dota.

actually, i think doing countless prelim mcq papers kinda contributed to my mess up too. like after doing so many mcq's, im too used to working things out quickly and taking shortcuts. not showing adequete working and stuff. even so, i dont think ill ever in this life of mine be able to accept the fact that i mugged so hard for physics, and still screwed up. but i guess for prelims, effort doesnt equate to results.

when i first got the papers back, i felt this rush of hate towards the entire physics department. why did they have to mark so strictly and be so picky? why didnt they appreciate the effort that i put in? but now i know, they want us to realize many things, that our answers must be well organized, we must know what the examiner wants us to see from that question, because examiners are essentially dumb, therefore we have to show every single small formula, step, equation, proof, definition, statement, SI unit, diagram and whatever other thing we learnt in the first 5 minutes of each lecture (before we fall asleep) this 2 years.

i must say im not looking forward to the end of the A levels. you see, while peeps like dx are busy counting the days left to the start of A levels, im counting the days left to the end. its a kind of dread to realize that my 12 years of schooling have gone by so fast, and that there are less days left to my NS enlistment than i had to mug for A levels. haha, time to get back to the books. i know god will not forsake me, as will he not to the many other friends i have in ac who have done badly. he will honour our hard work.

ok la i realize that i was stupid. god has a reason for putting me through all this shit. i will continue working hard, he will not forsake me.

MUG

ok please pardon me for using the f word in this post, im really quite pissed off. you see, i spent so much bloody time doing physics in the entire month before the prelims. after doing like 3 papers a week and all that shit, all i get is some shit score. then for my fucking chemistry, i didnt even study at all, i did like an infinite amount more physics than chemistry. and my chem grade can still beat my phyiscs? i mean like WTF lar. why didnt my effort equate to my eventual score? this sucks.

what is god doing to me? i thought he would at least reward all my fucking effort for physics in some way. FUCK

oh shit, i need to cool off

first day of the last term of school :(
today, i was reminded how little time i have left in this school. im so gonna miss all the fun and good times i've had, if only i could stay in ac foreverrrrrr. but i know i have to move on, there are greater things to accomplish for God's glory.

to commemorate this day, we took stupid photos

lihao's and my first chem lecture in about 3 months. you see, we found the opportunity cost of attending chem lec too high, we could done much more productive work in the library. behind us is the rare sighting of clemens paying attention. in the background there are random classmates being studious, zheng hao wondering what we're doing, and yeecheng's hairband.

at this point, clemens got bored of the chem lecture too. but the reflection from the lights above spoilt the photo.

waiting for gp class to start.

ok la the following picture wasnt taken today but i decided to upload it anyways cause i found it in my phone.

a happier day:)
those were the days, when the prelims still seemed far away.
now, the road to the A's lies stark ahead of us.
a road which we have no choice but to travel.
but then again, i love this road. hahah

at first, frostbite didnt seem like such a bad movie. only that it was in swedish and we had to read the english subtitles for the entire duration of the movie. but at least there was a hot swedish chick as the female lead, even though she had a swedish name that sounded retarded, saga. who the hell will call anything saga? wtf. but anyways it had all the makings of a cool vampire show where the heroes slay the vampires in the end. until the idiot director decided it was cooler to turn the entire town into vampires, and so he did. sigh, if that show had a dawn of the dead kind of ending, maybe it wouldnt have been so dumb.

swenson's coffee sucks. i had the worst latte in my life last night at the PS swensons. i mean, if you know that your coffee sucks then maybe you shouldnt go and charge people $3.90 for a small cup of it wtf!!!

um, i started mugging. its pretty fun to do mcq's actually. but im just worried ill burn out too fast. dunno, daryl told me that dk told his class to slack off for the entire hols, because next term was going to be uber hardKHOR. but he didnt tell my class anything, so i guess we are allowed to mug during the hols. haha.

so since i've officially quit dota last sunday night, i have loads of free time now. im not exactly spending all my free time mugging, but im doing more meaningful things with my time. like in the past few days, i've read a lot of random things, its pretty fun to read these kinda stuff and just broaden our minds. like for physics, i was reading about maxwell's equations and light, and einstein's relativity. omg i dont know why we're not learning that for A level physics lor, you can only truly appreciate einstein's gennius if you see what he did in relativity. and maxwell, omg another genius not allowed to display his findings to generations of JC students.

my heart cries out for them.