so i've got half an hour of my birthday left to go....

i guess im happy la, while army has lowered my standards of what to expect it still was a meaningful and fulfilling day so thank you for today if you were part of it.

1 more birthday holding 11B ENDURE!!!!!!!!

i just read auguries of innocence by william blake. such a familiar poem, every barker boy can relate to the starting verses :

To see a world in a grain of sand
And a heaven in a wild flower,
Hold infinity in the palm of your hand
And eternity in an hour.

i love this poem so much because it celebrates youth, and innocence, and purity. it represents everything we've lost to the organisation. blake is so cool because the general theme of most of his work revolves around stuff like these, and also his dissatisfaction at the moral state of society. so these are all things that i believe in also and i can really relate to him and i think thats cool.

ok, i would elaborate more but like im really tired i need to sleep now lol SOMEBODY GET ME OUT OF HERE.

:(

i wish you guys were around for me to share moments like these with. i mean like, theres so many newbs in the world to own before ord, i cant possibly do it alone right?! its like an uphill task, pwning these newbs all by myself. i feel so lonely and powerless, fighting against this mad rush of newbs suddenly bursting in my direction the moment i create a game on BNet. i feel like im the only pro left on BNet now that all of you are in army :(

and like since xavier is like a newb like the rest of the newbs in the world it wont make a difference after he OOTs. i need someone like su or wong or chang or manav or whatever :(

ok la im not that serious about dota la hahaha... army has made me realize that life is more than playing computer games and owning noobs on bnet. life is about spending your time well and being a blessing to others and doing good things and being the person that god wanted you to be.

but its so hard to be like that in the army. i need god to empower me, i need god to give me strength to be different and do things right for once....

HOW TO BE A CLERK 101

HOW TO BE A CLERK IN THIS ORGANISATION 101

1) Don't let anyone know what you are doing

2) Act blur in all situations

3) Don't stay in your office if your officer is around

4) Intimidate your colleagues (especially if you are the new guy), so that they wont dare to throw shit at you out of fear.

5) Lunch time is an entitlement, not a privilege. You are given 60mins for lunch, TAKE ALL OF IT, IT IS YOUR RIGHT.

er lol im damn sick of this. actually i hate to be like this but its damn hard to be nice in the army cause people just take advantage of you and abuse you and abuse you and abuse you and abuse you and abuse you.