theres some dumb b grade horror flick on channel 5 now. but i think its quite funny, like this guy falls into a hole in the ground and when he wakes up he's surrounded my corpses and the show gets even more stupid from there. luckily, i've stopped watching it. (but this would probably be a fun movie to watch a movie marathon cause its one of those dumb movie marathon movies)

so i did quite ok for my math test. but im sad, because i only did quite ok. nevermind, no one's gonna understand.

i really want my scholastic merit award, and im really busy this term, but i guess i've learnt how to handle it. i shouldnt spend my jc life waiting for shit to be over because its shit and i want to go over with it, jc life's too short for that. i want to enjoy every moment of it, so that when i look back ill know that i made the best of it and have nothing to regret.

then, im really looking forward to monday. sa1 and se1 with gary chan outing. hahahahahahahaha.

IPhO!!

i went for the international physics olympiad astro night briefing with mr ho just now. firstly, i was very suprised by how little publicity had been put into the fact that we are hosting an international olympiad which will probably never come to singapore again in at least 50 years. so like for 10 days in july, the average iq of singapore will increase by 100 or something.

i like to see passionate people go about passionately doing whatever they have a passion for. not like the kind of "i need to work hard cause if not ill fail" passion, but the "omg i like doing physics i get turned on by it and stuff". i hope i find my passion soon. lol

so anyways, people who want to go for IPhO astronomy night come and find me ill try and ask if u can be put in last minute. its gonna be super fun cause its like 3pm on friday till 1am the next morning and most people will stay till 6am cause its impossible to go home at 1am and they are gonna turn off all the lights at the ntu campus and army camp around it throughout the night so no one who doesnt wanna get raped by a pack of wild dogs is gonna try walking the 1km journey out. the only downside of this is that its like on 14th july or something, so its like 3 weeks from prelims. but mr ho said "1 less day of mugging is not gonna make a difference".

ok, off to finish tutorial 32.

i really dont mean to be so cynical today

bye bye ds. cya on 10 april, have a good mission trip in phillipines. god will use you to bring a blessing to the people in ulu-land. i will pray for you and your mission trip buddies that god will keep you safe and have a good trip. may god change your lives and the lives you touch through this journey. maybe i should go on a mission trip in december too, it might be refreshing from singapore. like i might actually meet sincere people in these rural villages, unlikes those in singapore.

i think chicken rice war is a nice show. i like these kind of shows where the loser gets the babe. but we all know that never happens in real life. social rejects and the dregs of society, no one cares about them or their existence. pierre png acted really well in that show, like he was speaking in shakespere language for 3/4 of the show too, that is really hard. zhihuan is right sometimes, its so sad, that nice guys finish last.

things to do in coming week:
1. read the tempest before i watch it
2. be nice to zhihuan
3. try and start studying chemistry

i think i can do it

yay. things are getting better, i have gained some momentum in my mugging and can now solve most math TYS standard questions.

but then i can only do j2 work since my j1 works SUCKS and im so busy with j2 work that i cant begin my j1 revision and i would probably only be able to start j1 revision in june when its too late and then i wont be well prepared for prelims but why am i worrying about this terms have just ended shouldnt i give myself a break no i cant because so many of my classmates are mugging already i feel compelled to mug oh crap that means i dont have a break till 17nov but who cares i need to get my grades or get owned singapore is like that you make it or they break you wait wait why are there no periods in this paragraph i dont know either maybe im trying to turn all my expression errors in gp into just one big big one so that i wont get penalized so much haha thats not funny at all.

oh no im sick again. this is the 2nd time in a month i've fallen ill. maybe my immune system is really that weak.. falling sick sucks, it feels so horrible.

so even though im not in school my friends have been updating me on my term exam results. i guess i did better than expected for math and gp. but im quite disappointed with my physics score. ohwell, at least i dont have a single F. i must still work harder in term 2 and 3 :)

ok, back to sleep. hopefully ill be well enough to go to school tomorrow

on my way home today i saw an accident. it was damn horrible. you couldnt even tell what vehicles were involved in it till u looked closely. it was just a big mess of metal and glass. hope the drivers were ok, but the ambulance was still at the scene when my bus went pass, so the driver's injuries cant have been that bad. or maybe the ambulance driver just wasnt happy that he didnt get a pay raise or something... ok nevermind not funny to joke about these issues

in other matters:
zhihuan is a fucking hypocrite. please stop telling people how badly you're gonna fail and how your single digit mark will be the the cube root of theirs when you get fucking distinctions man. zhihuan has inspired me to mug, i shall attend more chem lectures from now on and beat him. but ponning chem lectures to eat prata with banana and honey is so much more fun lor. like seriously, i think eating prata is more constructive than attending chem. ohwells, i better learn to love the subject or ill never do well in it.

holiday

Bowling camp (mon-wed)
well, bowling camp was actually great! i thought it would be really stoned for me cause i didnt know many bowlers while most of them knew each other already, but it wasnt that bad at all. i think we can attribute this to the fact that ac bowlers are generally nice and easy to get along with. hahah. and god also blessed me because he put me in the same room of keith, gaius and joel, cause like i already know keith and gaius.. and joel is so friendly anyways.

so all-in-all it was kinda like orientation! there were alot of team bonding games and only 2 hours of training. but i guess the camp was meant more for team bonding than skill training... ill always remember sin chew hor fun and playing asshole tai ti and drinking stupid concoctions and making augustin run into the golf course lake at 1am :))

when augustine ran to the pond kenneth followed him to video it or something but when augustine came back kenneth was missing then we were all like "omgwtf he went missing" for a moment. but later on we realized he just went to some other people's room for awhile.

on the last day and my only complete day in camp (cause i had to go back to school for SRS on tuesday), we had this amazing race. got grouped with augustin, joyce and meaghan. sigh, i told augustin that we should try out best to win it lor, but we spent too much time in occ poolside, so we were the last team...until we reached the war memorial. every group got stuck there because of some stupid clue which no one could solve. then after that like 12 of us got into meaghan's car to go to botanical gardens, it was so squeezy joel actually had to stand in the car, lol. so in the end we were tied last with like 3 other groups so it didnt matter.

actually, i felt that amazing race was more team breaking than bonding, but nevermind, i shall not speak of it. we were all damn screwed and tired out after that. but kenny, debby, clarence and marc really did a good job with the games in school. like there was this game where we have to get the whole team through a hula hoop which was raised like 1m up, juliana fell through the hoop her group had to carry her through and gaius just jumped right through it lol.

Doc's appointment (thurs)
the bone scan finally showed what was causing the pain. in medical terms i have greater trochanter bursitis of the left femoral shaft and the distal epiphysis of the left femur. in layman terms, im F*King screwed. my bowling career is shattered. this injury prevented me from training from november to march and now i have to lay off bowling till june. this means i wont be able to bowl A divs (actually i dont think i would have been more than a reserve even if i didnt get this diagnosis because not training from november to march screwed my bowling).

sigh, i dont know why and how i got this injury, but i know its messing up my life. hope i heal soon...

Mugging (fri-sun)
mugging was really bad. i couldnt concentrate. i was telling qing how dumb this was, at the start of the year i told myself ill mug damn hard for terms and get my AAA and then everything will be smooth sailing. then halfway through the term i realized i wasnt even doing work so i changed my target to ABC. now ill be happy if i can manage a CCC.

Physics (today)
oh it wasnt that bad after all. but i really dont know, i think i lost like 12 marks so far but i really wont know how i did till i get my results back. and my chem= confirm fail, i shouldnt have ponned all those lectures after all... im still debating whether i should just sacrifice chem and mug for math so i can get like.. C for it. gosh my life is sad, i shouldnt even be aiming for C's.

ok bye people. im going to hell tomorrow. nah just kidding im going for bowling camp but i can tell its gonna be damn stoned cause i dont know that many bowlers. but ill make the best of it, cause i dont think im going to be in bowling for very long :(

i hope wednesday comes soon.

i want to start this post with a prayer. DEAR GOD, I HOPE YOU LET MARCUS AND JARED BACK INTO ACJC, THEY HAVE NO CCA'S TO APPEAL IN WITH AND ARE JUST HOLDING ON TO THE FAITH THAT YOU HAVE TAUGHT US TO HAVE IN YOU. I AM SURE THEY WILL WORK HARD AND BRING GLORY TO YOUR NAME WHEN THEY COME BACK. AMEN



remember long ago i thought that friendster horoscopes were really accurate? now that i've like, started using friendster again...

Friendster Horoscope for March 6, 2006
The Bottom Line
You will stop being overwhelmed as soon as you trim back your jam-packed schedule.
In Detail
The urge to hibernate has hit all of us, but the way you're feeling now, you're not only in the mood to get away from the maddening crowd, you're also in desperate need of some quality time alone. In addition, it's just about time for you to start dishing out a few surprises in return -- the way others have been tossing them your way, that is. A day with the phone turned off just might do it.



gosh, it really is horribly accurate...

ACS BARKER FTW!!

barker's playing ri on the acjc field now. leading 15-7 according to chang's sms match update to me.

i hope we win, barker FTW!

i can see clearly now

1.yesterday when i reached home after physics prac i had a temperature of 39.4, so i was like omg i am so screwed. but luckily after 6 hours of sleep and 2 doses of panadol my temperature fell to 38.5. i've never had a 39.4 fever before. its so horrible, you cant even think straight, its like everytime i try and form a vaguely complete thought in my head it starts hurting real bad. i dont want to be sick again, stupid jill and andre, thanks for giving me your germs, i think i got a hybrid of both your germs lor....

2. Xavier's "im trying out being positive" attitude is so cool, i hope he stays like that forever.

3. Bone scan tomorrow, lihao told me they stick a needle in your hand and run radioactive fluid through it till it flows through your entire body so they can take the scan... and that you can feel the liquid flow through your body.PAIN.

4. Last founder's day celebrated as a student was great! after spending 113th to 118th founders day on parade i can finally enjoy it as a spectator. i kinda miss those good old parade days, but i bet ill hate em next year when i get into NS. it was good to see old faces like josh fong, jing yan, leng kian. so many scouts got distinctions

5. im almost sure i wanna retake chinese, just for the AO pass.

6. A level results: j3's did really well(gogo leonard chng!). i guess it was a good experience today, going to the hall to see the happy and sad faces, the tears in the eyes, the smiles on the faces. somehow i saw more tears, but it kinda made be think about whether i would be crying next year, and i think i would, if i carry on at this pace.

7. engineering quiz on saturday at NTU! im quite suprised that i made it into the 2nd round, but since i have i better make try my best and do well for it :)

opportunity cost

yes, opportunity cost. i still remember what that means from my 1st 3 months econs education. so we can say that the opportunity cost of the worldview (or globalview, i forgot what its called) conference is my term exam grades. it would have been a really good experience had i gone for it. but oh well...

so after talking to lots of people on what i should do i concluded that i wasnt good enough to handle the revision and the commitment of the event at the same time. i gave up the opportunity of a lifetime, but if you know me well enough, theres nothing new about that. what is another opportunity given up when i have already messed up so much?

i better study for terms, or i will hate myself, i will turn into a zhihuan. i gave up the conference for terms, i must do well.

ok enough depressive ranting, i shall move on to how wonderful yesterday was. like after school i watched acs barker come back from 0-13 to beat some neighbourhood school quite badly. and after the game i went to the canteen where some classmates were talking about (lol, nevermind). shag shoot & marry sucks when you have 3 horrible people to choose from, like you'd wanna shoot all 3, but i guess if you were given people whom you distinctly know whether to shag shoot or marry then it wont be so fun anymore cause people can just guess who you'd choose.

and arts night was a blast! why doesnt the science council organise fun stuff like this? like all they do is peer tutoring, its boring and gay. oh but i shouldnt be saying that because i probably need the tutoring just to pass. nevermind, now that lihao and i are in science council we will revolutionize it and make it cool :) we will catalyze the irreversible 1-step self propogating reaction that will rock the science fac!!

like,








hahahahahahahahahahahah. study hard friends :)

******

im sick of everything.

wtf is this
why am i here
what am i doing
where am i going
who is this
who am i
im confused
im sick
im sick
im sick.

i just woke up after a 12 hour long nap and im still tired. bloody jc life is really too intensive, but who cares about that, its still fun :))

so when i turned on the TV just now there was this documentary on the capture of saddam hussein, it was a re-enactment of a conversation between him and an iraqi interpreter on the night just after his capture, while they were walking from his underground bunker back to the jeeps, during which saddam kept looking at the sky.
the iraqi interpreter ran away to the US years ago when his family got murdered or something horrible by saddam.

Iraqi interpreter : Look at the sky, the beautiful stars, you'll never see them again. We're going to lock you up in a prison in cuba and you'll be there till you die.
Saddam : I am not looking at the stars, I am looking for Allah.
Iraqi interpreter: You dont know Allah, you killed all those people
Saddam : I am saddam hussein, I am a hero, of course I know Allah.
Me (on my sofa watching this) : wtf??!!

But i guess alot of people are like that too. They think they know their god when actually they dont. Think about it.

18th on the 18th

XVIII was so fun. Met so many friends, srjc friends, barker friends, and alumni today. I shall remember today for the rest of my life. Dunking is like the uber revenue generator, its the least effort-most rewards option for all carnival games, cause it capitalizes on the crowds sadism and we have no lack of that since this is AC, lol.

went for 3 out of the 4 haunted houses. the first one we went to was the only one worth going. Like at least there was a decent scary atmosphere in the LT6 one, the rest were just.... comedies. i think the scone cafe was even more scary than all the haunted houses put together, like we went in at 9am and saw the decor, we suddenly felt like doing nothing else but mug. so creepy lor, like they can make visitors to their cafe get the sudden urge to finish their TYS in the cafe.

Although this is my 4th carnival, it was the first one which i actually made a purphase from the supermarket. i bought 3 nice AC ring files for $10 from the souvenior shop. Now i have proper files for Physics, Chem and Math!

theres like a load more stuff to write about, but i am just too tired. maybe tomorrow, haha.

honest intent

i feel like i've travelled through singapore today, went to so many places to sell $80 worth of tickets. but its all worth it, i will do it for my school.

11 years of ac education has finally worked on me, i am raising money with all my effort for the school. remember the ac tradition, we inherit this great heritage, legacy, facilities, only to make it richer and more full for future generations to enjoy, like what the previous generations have done for us.

but i was a bit shocked when i saw the desecration, the vadalism, the horrid defilement of the barker campus we so loved. what have the juniors done? dont they realise that they are destroying what we worked so hard for? i guess they are still young and too dumb too realise how dumb they are.

but going back to hougang bowl today was fun. met my 1st 3 months bowling friends like ben and yiling, and also keith from ac barker. he was sent to srjc like me, but like me also, he will return to ac soon :)

3 days left, just keep selling

red roses

valentines day



lol

white or blue?

so i told myself that i must not hate chem, but mug harder for it instead. cannot get 3/20 again, its too demoralizing.

finished like 1 tutorial and 3 chapters of organic chem revision this weekend, so im feeling quite accomplished. i mean like most of my classmates have been playing games online the whole weekend and i actually mugged! great.

today was really funny too. i went to taka with zh(zhi huan) to buy stuff and when we were horsing around(ok seriously we were buying acrylic paint for zhihuan) in art friend we met the other zh(zheng hao), so coincidential. then later on i met paul teng at the art shop opposite art friend too, today is like.. "oh what a small world it is" day.

i am so looking forward to tomorrow, when we journey to SP to sell our fun o rama coupons for 2 hours and spend the other 6 playing lan yay!

the outlook for next week is a good one, save tuesdays.

lalalala la la

i suddenly hate chemistry. i mean like why should anyone even like halogen derivatives or weird stuff like that?

i dont even regret skipping 2/3 of the lectures for the latest topic. stupid stupid chemistry, i dont even know why i hate it so much now. but i used to hate physics, and now i like it so much more than chem. its not so memory intensive, physics is a concept thing, while chem is just gay.

then theres all these people saying that i have gone crazy... cause i am joining everything. but please understand, at the end of last year i looked back at my jc1 life, and realised that all i had were regrets, things i wished i could do better, and nothing to be proud of. so i told myself, you dumb shit, wake up ur idea and change your life while you still have 1 more year to do so. get it now? so please stop questioning my sanity for joining the NTU current affairs quiz, engineering quiz, science and mathematics council, various scholarship talks and the motivation to mug harder than ever in class.

oh crap it really does look like a lot of sutff that i've joined now that i look back at it. hah, but i suppose thats a good thing.



let me end with a convo i just had with xing on msn

shaun - There's a mugger in all of us. FIND THE MUGGER IN YOU TODAY! says:
hey xing
GniXiz~ mm says:
hey zhi
shaun - There's a mugger in all of us. FIND THE MUGGER IN YOU TODAY! says:
hows life?
GniXiz~ mm says:
erm gd
shaun - There's a mugger in all of us. FIND THE MUGGER IN YOU TODAY! says:
do you feel prepared for terms?
GniXiz~ mm says:
nope
GniXiz~ mm says:
but math
GniXiz~ mm says:
ya
shaun - There's a mugger in all of us. FIND THE MUGGER IN YOU TODAY! says:
are you going out with any babe on v day?
GniXiz~ mm says:
can get a once i revise
GniXiz~ mm says:
yea if i fidn the balls to ask
GniXiz~ mm says:
u?
shaun - There's a mugger in all of us. FIND THE MUGGER IN YOU TODAY! says:
yea if i find the balls to ask
GniXiz~ mm says:
sweet



hahahahahahahahaha.

play ends here

ahhh my blog is in neglect! i shall make an effort to update more now that school is starting again, and as i have pointed out to qing there are no more breaks/holidays to look forward to until the much dreaded terms. but just as well, there will be less distractions :))

the deadline i have set for myself has come
the day which FeaR[USMC] and LordOfTheDogs cease to exist
it'll be hard to adjust, how can someone who plays dota daily suddenly only play on the weekend? i dont know either, but im about to find out. lol

but let us shut down our comps, take out our (very clean) books, put on our specs, sharpen our pencils and meet our targets for terms, it'll be a... confidence boost yes, just what we all need when we have been scraping thru every subject last year.

and so, let this blind, endless pursuit for academic excellence begin. today
buahahahahaha