Mmmmm so like as x pointed out to be just now in about 48 hours we'll be getting our results. I just cant wait, the huge amount of time we have between knowing when we'll be getting our results and receiving them causes a lot of unnecessary anxiety and etc.

Im actually very worried about the results, Im very afraid that I would not be able to to live up to the expectations I have set for myself. I just hope that I have done well enough, if not I would be very sad. But I have faith in Him, and thats all I need to carry me through till friday.

But I must say ah... its really damn stupid to judge students this way, through just one bloody crucial exam. Like since its just once then obviously luck will play a big part in it isnt it? Like how are we going to tell if smartest kid wakes up with a headache and cant think properly for the paper, while the dumbest kid guesses all the hard questions right. Seriously, exams like the O and A levels are damn dumb ideas.

Ahhh I hate the rain, because of the rain i couldnt go out today. I had so many things to do lar! now I just have to put it off till tomorrow.

I cant wait for friday.

i tried not to make this emo

I was going to make this another post-mambo post. but changed my mind cause there really is nothing much to talk about. Its always the same anyways, getting high and loving every second then waking up the next day feeling like shit.

So I realized that recently all my blog updates have become like post-mambo posts. How sad, its like I not longer feel motivated to continue blogging. I dont even know what im doing with my own life anymore, I feel so empty, I hate this emptiness. That big part of my life that involved going to school and being happy is suddenly gone, all I have left are memories. And even playing gets boring after awhile.

I was also accidentaly enlightened by someone about an issue I had already known but refused to accept. Damn it I'm being vague again it must be really boring and hard to read this blog. Sorry, I guess like only 5 people will understand what I'm talking about lol.

Moving on to happier topics, Qing believes that he is allergic to martini's.
















yeah ok I know stop laughing now.
But really qing i dont think its the martini, its probably the thing glennchee offered you that night lol.
yeah qing's nuts even when he's not high, its pretty funny.




and since you're all laughing already let me end the post with the funniest thing you've ever heard. its an sms from zhihuan in reply to one of my dumb responses to one of his serious sms-es. here it goes "Life isn't about getting laid cos you have hands. Its about finding your soulmate" lol yep thats the original version i didnt edit anything and i swear its the funniest shit i ever heard him say lol lol.

2 days ago i woke up and it dawned on me, the sudden realization that it was indeed again the most screwed up day of the year. 14 of feb can really piss u off. in secondary school when there were no girls no one used to care about it and all was well we would just treat it like any other normal day and go play lan after school or something, but then i went to jc right and suddenly everyone's making a big deal out of it and buying/making all kinds of crap for everyone else and all the girls are holding flowers and looking happy (for the first and only time in the entire year lol lol).

so being un-weird people we celebrated it the normal way, by trying to ignore this disgusting element of western tradition that has pervasively invaded our traditional and beautiful asian culture (ok la im exaggerating for kicks lol lol). mmmmm so anyways we met aaron after his lunch date to shop for stuff and got owned by some over agressive/enthusiastic shop keeper at far east. ok no we werent actually shopping at far east we were shopping for proper clothes then we decided to go to far east to buy random t-shirts.

so somehow we ended up at zouk, xavier's "2 friends" turned out to be a group of 10 people. Met loads of ac people there, loads of old friends, was real fun and crazy. about 12 of us met at the coffeeshop opposite zouk to have a drink which was more like several shots of vodka cause manav brought an entire bottle of absolut. mmmmm got pretty high even before we entered zouk and really it got worst but was real fun lol lol. lost the big group somewhere around 3am and thought it was going to get boring but guess what? lol ran into jan. so we hung out with jan's gang for awhile and etc.... taught qing a few important lessons about trannies lol, qing has a lot to learn about the hidden mysteries of gaysingapore. mmmmm so altogether had like 3 shots of vodka, 1 mug of heineken, 1 vodka sprite, another mug of beer, a lychee martini and many sticks of something lol. yep it was pretty fun getting all fcuked up and messed cause we're like 18 what better age to do so right...

learnt like moves for a few mambo songs too but they're all pretty gay i guess u can only pull em off if you're high hehehe.

mmmmmmm it was a great night hope to do it sometime again soon like tonight hehehehe.

It feels like the best days of my life are over, like I left my youth behind in jc. Its like I'm just living life for the sake of it now, just to pass time till the 12th of april. That was how I felt like at the start of this week, I suppose listening to VERY emo songs like the saddest song by the ataris also contributed to my lack of enthusiasm towards life haha. Listening to emo songs suck ah, it makes the happiest people emo.

But it is very gay la, it seems to me that I'm no longer having as much fun in my life. Its also very hard to find motivation in my job, its quite depressing to repeatedly attempt (and fail) to teach teenage boys who are completely indifferent to the intensions of yourself and the rest of the staff. But I dont think thats the reason why I'm so sick of my life now la, I dont really give a shit about how the normal acad guys turn out, because I kinda already know how they're gonna turn out.

Anyways later in the week I got less emo cause I started listening to happy songs like bohemian like you by the dandy warhols. So I'm happier now even though I really miss school. No other experience in life will be as fun as school ever was, and I dont think uni can be the same.

Moving on to happier issues, I hit 400apm in a battle yesterday woohoo! I guess this means I wont need to waste 100 on a stupid razor mouse if my good ol mouse can still do the trick!! Of course what I'm look for also is QAPM not APM, so I should work on that also.


But who cares about warcraft la, its just a game to me now. I no longer aspire to win wcg and such hehehe.

I still think thats its very stupid that we're forced to become mature now that we're out of school and have to take responsibility over our lives and everything that we do.

Aiyah fcuk la, theres a lot of things I wanna say but cannot. Ok bye I'm going to shop for sheng's present now hahaha

then a mile of warm sea scented beach

shouldnt have drank the wine before we went to zouk last night. yeah, i was a bit high and met (according to gy) pudge. then around 2am i got real tired cause i cycled earlier in the day but stayed on the dance floor to accompany clemens since it was his last mambo :)

at least im not hungover today. but GOSH, i need to control my alcohol intake to prevent another solo mid with pudge!!

K now for photos. every time i go cycling and i end up in some nice park ill take photos of the scenery and such. i think u guys will be suprised that there are actually such beautiful landscapes in singapore now. so enjoy :)

EAST COAST PARK



ya i mean its nothing compared to like the maldives but this is good enough after a long hard day at work. i love cycling down the parkway, listening to the waves crashing against the shore.



LOWER PIERCE RESOVOIR PARK




i accidentaly ended up here haha, after i cycled to the end of bishan park. i was actually looking for MacRitchie resovoir and i found pierce, but it was still nice.



BEDOK RESOVOIR PARK (cycling is actually not allowed in this park i had to get my bike over some steps before i got in)

from ground level:

from the top of the hill:

i took awhile to climb this hill haha, but the descent later was really fun too! i kinda found out why bikes were prohibited, because this hill has awfully steep climbs leading to it. if you dont keep spinning your pedals while climbing you're gonna slide back down and fall off your bike.

i know these photos arent that great, they were taken with my phone camera. the photos really dont do justice to the truly magnificent views, especially the pierce resovoir one. maybe one day if some of you follow me on my lil cycling trips you can see it for yourselves :)


this last photo has nothing to do with my cycling trips. its the zouk dance floor before it gets full of wildly gyrating drunkards, cigarette butts, spilt vodka, vomit, pudges and wasted youths. im so proud of it cause i could capture the lighting with my phone cam, BET NONE OF YOU CAN DO THAT haha.

I just had my worst ever day in barker. I took 4e1 today, it was so horrible. Before the lesson, I told myself that I would take it upon myself to teach them how to be real acs boys, and how to live up to the standards set on them by generations of previous batches. Before the period started, 3 guys got into a fight. I was not there when the fight started. Violence doesnt solve any problems, but when your IQ is lower than your age, you kinda wont understand that.

It was the period after recess, and as usual 4e1 spent their recess playing soccer at the futsal court. Hence, many of them were had their shirts unbuttoned and their pants rolled up like bermudas, classic scene from gangster student movie huh? After repeated attempts at making a student correct his attire, I put his name down for DC. Apparently this was a source of discomfort for him and his gang. Heres where I made my mistake, I put down another guys name for DC for laughing in a disruptive and jeering manner. Presumably at how I had to resort to using DC to deal with them. He got angry, they started being really rude to me. I could have said a million f words, but I tried my best to control myself. Then I lost it, I called them a bunch of useless cockups. Again, they were really offended by this. Apparently they were bothered by the fact that this was the kind of opinion the rest of the school(and public) had of them. They got even more rude and I more pissed off. I decided that I could not handle this class, I called for help. Mr Lau had always told me before he gave me a normal acad or lousy express class to teach that I could call if I couldnt handle them. But Mr Lau was absent today, so I called Mr Glenn Wong who then called Mr Timothy Wong.

He came up and sorted it out. I spent a long time cooling off outside the class while he was with them inside, I hadnt been so angry ever before. It was real bad. Mr Wong was pretty professional in handling it though, all he did was sort out the initial mess. He allowed me to choose what I wanted to do myself. He didnt ask me to take ALL the guys names I put in the CMR off, he didnt ask me to apologise to them for calling them useless.

Gosh, it was so bad. My entire day is now spoilt. I mean like I deeply respect Mr Ng for everything he has done for the school, and I truly believe in his cause. That some of the boys from the school can really be saved. But sometimes, I just think that maybe, we shouldnt have a normal stream. These are the ones that have little respect for teachers, little regard for the things they learn in school, and a huge impact on the reputation that generations of previous ACS boys have built up (or has helped to enhance the notoriety that previous batches of barker boys similar to them have earned for themselves?)

I know that deep down, these guys are pretty nice, because I had a pretty good chat with them after the whole incident. 4D1 is another normal class that I teach all the time, and I have a pretty good relationship with them. Sometimes I even look forward to my lessons with them. I suppose Ill have to learn how to deal with these guys. I learnt a very important lesson about teaching these guys today. I hope that one day these boys will learn how to be proper ACS boys, and then they will be able to grow to be men of significance and stature in society today, like the many many generations of boys before us have. And then they will be ready to carry the school name well (But sadly, I doubt it).

I hope my bad day ends here. Im going to clarke quay to watch the singapore and malaysia match with some friends later, hopefully I can forget all this shit. Haha

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white;
Just our hands clasped so tight,
Waiting for the hint of a spark.
If heaven and hell both decide,
That they both are satisfied,
Illuminate the "no's" on their vacancy signs.
If there's no one beside you,
when your soul embarks;
then I'll follow you into the dark.



i love this song, its so meaningful. LOL WTF but its damn emo im so emo now why whyyyyyyyyyyyyy

love of mine

Im really tired. Barker only calls me at about 7am each morning, they give me about an hour to get to school. As I am still in bed when they call me, and I take about 20 minutes to get fully ready, you can understand that I end up taking cabs everyday. Its not that bad, only about $7 from my house to Barker, only that I have to cough up another $4 for calling the cab, $2 for peak hour surcharge and $1 for ERP. Thats $14 wasted, but sigh what can I do, they always call too late for me to take a bus through peak hour traffic. Considering I earn $65 a day, if you minus cpf and cab fare I only get about $40 back. Can I say a vulgarity now? Thanks. FUCK

Most of the kids in barker are ok, they respect me because I give them more freedom than a normal teacher would. But some kids are really damn cock up. SOME, really... Wish I could say more here but I'm a teacher now haha. Anyways I'm secretly hoping they dont call me tomorrow, I'm too tired. Been sleeping 2-4 hours a day for the last 3 days because if you know me well enough you'll know I only get to sleep around 3am. Shag to hell man. Shagged to hell.

I've been cycling daily for the last 2 days too. My legs and butt hurt like shit. Even the best, most comfy bike saddle KILLS la hahaha. But the GT agressor really is damn sexy to ride, the brakes are really responsive, and suspension is so good it even damps when I brake, the gears shift much faster than a normal bike, and it has killer looks. Woohoo.

But I've been pretty depressed lately. Things are not going well in my life.

Yeah I know it must be real boring to read this update cause its just whining and shit. Maybe I'll compose more fun stuff when I'm happy again.



But its nothing to cry about;
cause we'll hold each other soon.

ventures' night


good food, nice ambience.
generations of alumni,
loads of catching up,
tons of fun.

ok qing im sorry i had to post this pic of you looking so unglam and queer but its the only v. night photo i have since i just stole them from AT's friendster haha.

Haha I cant believe I deleted my first post of 2007, but I did. What a way to start the new year! Nevermind, that way, when I look back at the events of yesterday night, I'll be able to remember clearly and remind myself not to let it happen again.I did make my New Year's resolution last night though, it was one of the last things I remember doing before waking up at 430pm today, haha.

Since its New Year we should also remember the poem 'God Knows' by M. Louise Baskins that they print in almost every ACS school publication, where it is known as the Knight's Prayer:

And I said to the man who stood at the gate of the year:
"Give me a light,
that i may thread safely into the unknown."

And he replied:
"Go out into the darkness and put your hand into the Hand of God. That shall be to you better than light and safer than a known way."

In many ways this prayer is significant today, now that we are no longer schooling and are free to do anything we want. The future holds many possibilites and challenges, and only through God will we be able to tide through these periods.

Oh and look GY a paragraph in my pseudo first post of the year dedicated to you. GY is back in Singapore people!! Stay off BNet to avoid his trail of destruction. No la, I'm really pleased that he's back, he's like the glue that gets all of 2se1 on BNet to play DotA and stuff. BNet has been pretty boring without him online, I hardly play with the 2se1 people and its real boring winning every game with the sOz people. So its good that he's back and I'll start losing again. Cheers GY

And because I did not mass send SMSes wishing everyone a Happy New Year this time, a routine which i have followed fervently since like forever. I would like to wish you and your loved ones a splendid New Year, and I really hope this will be a GREAT YEAR for everybody I know.

LOVE YA'LL ALWAYS

We were having breakfast at the PS macdonalds after church yesterday when xavier came, on his bike, in his full cycling attire. Now imagine that, X wearing a skin tight black spandex full body suit... OK maybe you shouldn't imagine that. But anyways after awhile he just rode off back down orchard road again, saving our eyes from a truly horrible sight.

Then we decided to watch curse of the golden flower. Wah qing and ds are really some newbs at watching movies ah they dont know whats happening and how the plot is developing and etc ah. I think the movie was great, except for those fucking ah bengs who didnt bother to silence their phones resulting in their jay chou ringtones spoiling the movie. I counted more than 5 phones go off ringing throughout the movie, and the theatre was only half full. fuckers, they seriously should learn some etiquette to make up for their intelligience or whatever else of the million things they suck in.

Despite those distractions, I still managed to appreciate the Zhang Yi Mou film, he's such a great director la, like all his films are so wonderful. Actually, I more of enjoyed the grandeur of the film than the story. Like, the magnificence and splendor of the forbidden city and everything it beholds was displayed so well, like the palace guards, or even the hot servant girls (haha). No, actually my favourite part was how every hour some eunuchs will go around beating gongs and announcing some heavenly whatever in a poetic way. The acting was great too, I think many Chen Yu's were used, although I dont understand most of them. The use of such words gives the royal family a sophistication right, like how the queen of england always uses some kind of flowery language too.

AH who cares, just watch it. Im sorry I used some vulgarities just now, but I really was damn annoyed by behaviour of some assholes hah

Since prom has just ended, I should rightfully post prom pics. But it would be so weird to post the baccalaureate pics after the prom pics so ill just post the baccalaureate pics first. Actually, I forgot to bring my cam for prom so the prom pics i post will be stolen from other people anyways haha!

Some pictures wont have captions cause im lazy, and some are blurry cause I messed up ok its quite hard to take photos with my cybershot. So like, just chill and rewind to a time when we were still worrying about A levels




After 12 years, I still look up daily at the acs crest with pride.



Li Hao fires the first shot

GY and I in some dark corner

Xavier pretending to play golf for Singapore

Oh Wise Pastor Reverend Esteemed Pope

wtf why's this photo so dark which newb took it? (must be that fag gy)

2 years of afternoons spent on BNet with these people

DotA gang with madam and weizhi

Barker boys in 2se1

Math God

Chinese God

Chem tuition gang

All the girls in 2se1 in the 3 following photos







sec4 basketball everyday even during prelims yo!!!

students sketchpad

Another math god

Look closely at the piece of paper

I really respect this man

DUNKIN!



<3




K ITS OVER.
it took damn long to upload all these shit lar

i can finally blog normally now YES!!

i've really started uploading the pictures, but its a very boring and time consuming process, so its going to take awhile. thats because im too lazy to compress the pictures so they are all like 1MB and it takes about a minute for each to be uploaded to blogger and there are so many pics and i dont want to waste too much time on them and stuff.

it has been a long week, from pre-prom prep to prom to post-prom partying to the post-prom class chalet. the party at dxo was quite an eye opener o_O lol. when i speak of eye opener i mean it in every sense of the word. er, nevermind haha, only like 5 people will understand what im talking about.

4v4 AT-ing with chang, sheng and su every night from 2am till early is quite fun. we're getting pretty good at it so its quite thrilling. dota-ing with my classmates isnt as exciting, sadly. i hate losing. i ABHOR losing. but i understand, some people lack the sense or experience to know what to do at the most crucial of times in the most important of battles. but heck, dota is just a freaking game.

but there still are other problems in my life, other issues bothering me. i feel like im drifting away from god, i dont know why. ahhhhhhhhh life really sucks when you dont have one :(


Till next time, i promise ill update soon!

SO WHAT

The A levels are over. I dont really feel anything though. I dont know, after the O's I was so hugely relieved and excited about the end of the exams right, but for A levels it doesnt really feel all that great. Maybe its because I've been through it before, I really dont know. Anyways I guess I should analyze all the papers and maybe when I get my results I can come back to this post and go "YEAH, ok" ...

1. GP - Actually I'm secretly scared of something I might have forgotten to do in paper 1, because the question was "does technology ALWAYS improve the quality of people's lives" right, I'm not sure if I answered the qualifier, the ALWAYS part, or actually I think I forgot whether I did answer it. I hope I did lol. But anyways I kinda geared my essay in the direction of "its obviously not always" so yeah. Faith. Paper 2 was quite fun.

2. Math P1 - By cambridge standards the paper wasnt easy. I think its one of the hardest A level math papers set by cambridge ever. But who cares cause by AC internal exams standards its like free frag.

3. Chem P3 - Whoa I've been dreading this paper. God was particularly good to me that day, all the answers I guessed were tycolly correct and I only made 1 real mistake which I really regret in the entire paper.

4. Math P2 - NO KICK

5. Physics P1 and 2 - P1 was NO KICK, after all the prelim papers I did it was pretty free frag too. Only made 1 careless mistake which I regret. P2 was killer. Also this year I think we saw one of the hardest physics papers papers set by cambridge. I forsee many casualties in physics this year.

6. Chem P2 - NO KICK. tycolly guessed about 5 marks correctly again in this paper god's grace is truly amazing :)

7. Physics P3 - Utterly non- standard. I dont know whats up with all these people thinking they did well for physics p3. I mean I didnt think it was that bad too, until i saw Mr Khor. If Mr Khor looks troubled after the paper, all the physics students in Singapore better be worried. And chang was telling me about how ownage the paper was too. Too many of the main stayers in the Physics didnt even come out this year, like EMI and Quantum. To the astute student, those are often also the questions which give students their marks. Its such a pity, as a school we have worked so hard for physics, 2 mock exams and countless hours of Mr Khor screaming at us. Now I guess we just have to take comfort in the fact that the entire country screwed it up and pray hard for gosu moderation.

ONE DAY BREAK STONE IN SCHOOL AND DREAM ABOUT LIFE AFTER A LEVELS

8. Chem P1 - One tricky bitch it was. I havent really analyzed this paper but from outside exam hall chatter i made 2 careless mistakes so far :( but i believe it'll be ok cause god is damn GOSU.



Life after the A levels is pretty boring. After having so many things to do in 2 years, I kinda dread having nothing to do now. Its so weird to wake up in the morning and not have anything to rush. Ah well i guess when everyone else finishes their exams it will be more fun. We can go put the chang jie MAN U plan into action and etc.

In other news, I owned qing in pool yesterday. He is such a noob, all that mugging for A levels has made qing a noob and gay guy. But qing was always noob and gay la hahahahah

In other other news, GY has bought a Razor Krait mouse and a Razor Exactmat. We have yet to see how they have improved his game (lol)

In other other other news, while gargling my mouth with listerine this morning i accidentaly swallowed half a mouthful of it. It was damn hot and I think it mixed with my breakfast to own my stomach cause im still having a stomach ache now and i feel like vomitting argh PAIN PAIN.

Im also starting my caffeine detox program! After having 2-3 cups a day for 3 months I am now down to like 1 every 2 days. But I feel quite tired without coffee :( My right eye has also stopped twitching since the level of caffiene in my blood has dropped.

More updates soon! I just realized I still havent uploaded Baccalaureate pictures haha

so my daily conversations with God go something like:
"hey God, A levels are damn scary"
"yes sonny, have faith, be strong"
"ok father, but im still very scared of chem"
"well thats cause you decided to fool around all this while innit"
"can i take physics and maths now? so i can get over it, i hate waiting, but i wanna take chem in 3 months time"
"whats your problem? i have 10000 other prayers to answer you know"
amen.

so my conversations with God are very healthy and i always learn something out of every one. dont ask me how i hear him. i guess we all can, in our hearts. frequently, when we are in the exam hall waiting for the paper to begin, i close my eyes and pray too. when i can hear Him, i know it'll all be ok.

Chemistry is like this big leap of faith for me, just that the hangtime is going to be about 4 months. as oppsed to the usual leaps we take in which we take moments to land again right. and the longer you stay in the air, no more doubts you have, you wonder how you're going to land, you wonder if you're going to land.
its so horrible
its so scary.

well, in other news, saddam is going to hang. i dont know why but i feel a tinge of sadness. i mean, he's been like such a big part all these world events and etc, then suddenly he has 30 days left to live unless his appeal is successful. why dont they just imprison him for life? i've always thought that the death penalty was damn messed. its so final, because once you're dead thats it.

heres where i end. i doubt there'll be another update till the end of my exams. until then, we should all pray, hard. through him, we will be more than conquerors.

"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God" - Philippians 4:6

The LORD is my light and my salvation,
whom shall i fear?
The LORD is the stronghold of my life,
of whom shall i be afraid?
-Psalm 27:1

so like a central theme of war poetry is cartharsis right. but then like, jc2 people also need their own carthartic ways to de-stress right. so like:

IM DAMN SCARED I CANNOT GET 3A's

PCB. PCBPCBPCB its like im damn scared of getting complacent right, cause thats what i let happen to me for the prelims. im particularly scared for chem, its my most shaky subject, although im improving, im quite sure if they hit me with a well placed question to screw up my thought process they'll own my entire paper.

even at the peak of my O level revision, i didnt feel like i could get 6 points. but now its different, my target is within reach, but i must own the paper properly. im not too sure if i prefer a hard paper or an easy paper though. cause like chang said, if they set a hard paper its better cause those w_f_s (must watch what we say now people getting raped for voicing their views on elitism) peeps will mess it up and we can take our rightful places in the normal distribution chart.

yeah, exams start next week. at this point its like exactly 3 weeks till the end of the A levels. its going to pass too quickly for my liking. oh yeah, i've been telling people that i want to buy a crumpler bag after A's, like a huge one. everyone i have told keeps on telling me its so poser and gay, but like, i think its quite cool what. especially since after A's i wont have to carry books around anymore so like i dont think ill ever carry a backpack again.

must focus,
must concentrate,
must own.
oh yes, i can see it. the future looks good.
or at least at this point, haha

today we went back to school to study.
the entire school was locked, the only place to study was the void deck and canteen. unfortunately, like all void decks and canteens, it was smelly and gay so i couldnt study there. but that wasnt a problem, cause i went with su and zheng hao to nl ten and we (or i, because su was being a wuss) jacked it.

anyways we discovered that wong's classroom was as clean as he left it the last time, so it was almost as pleasent studying there was it would have been in the canteen with the bird droppings and 3 days old chicken rice. so we did some work. then su started being gay with the air con, and i found a giant ant, and zheng hao finished his chem paper so we started to waste time by helping su to gay with the air con. then we found out that someone had accidentaly jacked the hub too, according to su someone got thrown onto the hub door and the door open upon impact. yeah, so next time i wont bother to do mission impossible 4 to jack the north lodge (we'll just throw su into the door repeatedly until it breaks).

then at 6pm su realized that he hasnt had his daily wank so he went home to relieve himself. and zheng hao left also because i made him pay $6.10 for one burger. but it was true ok, the bloody burger was $6.10, i didnt even know it costs that much. seriously BK shouldnt be so gay about their double whoppers with chesse, i mean it only weighs like 1kg right.

i got my enlistment letter today. im not a policeman, i can go ocs, but im in t3h OLD SCHOOL. and 12 april seems like an awfully long time to wait to get my first taste of being owned by some ite drop out coporal with half the intelligience of a cactus.

chang jie is bugging me, he is gay, stupid, and gay. i know he will read this so i might as well type something to piss him off. but i think chang jie might be able to get like one S paper disctinction, tycolly. and chang jie is damn pro in dota also, but dota seems so historic because i havent played it for so long.

theres only like 4 weeks left till the end of A levels. how quick, but like i know why since i studied physics. its like relativistic. cause like, einstein said that and einstein says everything that he says is true so when he said that chang jie was gay, stupid, and gay he meant it too. ok wtf am i talking about, i shall go back to study.

3.1 GOOD STUDY HAVEN

ok i lied, since i reformatted my computer i havent had time to install the program to upload pics from my cybershot so i cant post the baccalaureate photos yet :(

so i've spent most of the week mugging for about 14 hours a day in school. theres this empty classroom, 3.1, which i particularly like studying in. its like the 2ad1 form class and its always empty and the location is just nice, like the void deck and library are so accessible from there. and theres no noisy people like in the hub! but then again sometimes when im in the hub i make quite a lot of noise too. i guess its a hub thing, mugging there leads to talking which leads to more unproductive stuff like (exploring the school at 9pm with all the lights out).

yeah, su and chang are so adventurous and pioneering, they particularly enjoy roaming the school with all the lights out 10 days before the most important exam of their lives. but seriously, maybe end october is not the most urgent time to explore level 7 toilets...

in other news, im finally ranked to captain on area00! if u guys dont know, area00 is a damn fun game to replace dota with cause it only takes up 3mins a day and you get so sick of clicking that after 3mins you go back to your nov 2003 maths paper 2 question 5bii.
ABER:


yeah. you guys can start to make your accounts on korea server too! cause su and i have this uber plan to like OWN the area00 world after A's. how exciting. mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

um, im enlisting in march. so im most probably going back to relief teach in barker. it would be quite fun. and enriching. and fulfilling. but im not too sure if their have vacancies, and if there are better alternatives than teaching rowdy, violent boys whom i once resembled. yeah, whatever, back to mugging now before f1 qualifying later at 12! (yes f1 qualifying is at midnight today damn sian)

ACS

you see, ac is a bloody hax school right from the very start. the only way to get into the primary school is to either stay 5m away from the actual school, or to have a parent who had graduated from an acs related institution before. so in good ol' 94, my father enrolled me in what he thought would be the best education for his son, since he himself had received it.

so in primary 1 i walked into my classroom in the first level of the clocktower block in the barker road campus with some sort of apprehension, unsure of what the school held ahead for me. it was pretty thrilling though, being such young kids, and the campus so old and huge, we would spend recesses trying to explore the school, play catching but never finish the game because of the sheer size of the compound, or dare each other to run up the spooky clocktower staircase. haha, it was a pretty fun childhood. acps also shared the campus with the secondary section, acs (barker). even when i was 7, when i looked at the way those guys behaved, i kinda made up my mind not to continue in that school. little did i know that 6 years later, it would be the very school i had entered. maybe instead of playing catching, i should have studied a little harder.

but barker wasnt as bad as i thought it would be. if anything, it transformed me. it taught me faith, it thought me to dream, and to hope. although i cant testify much about the "value added"-ness of the school, because academically, i decreased in value, i can say i learnt much more than math and english in that school. acs barker was also the place where my relationshop with god grew. in primary school, i would attend chapel and listen to devotions, but not really appreciate what was being shared. perhaps it was how god gave me so many chances in those four years, and so much hope. barker was also the placed i met my best friends, the ones i could really trust, the ones whom i know wouldnt desert me for all the money in the world( but probably for a dota game they would). i met 4a3, the best class i could ever wish for (until 2se1?), 4a3 was a bloody good experience, ill remember those boys forever.

acjc was a different experience altogether. i mean like suddenly, CO-ED. damn scary, i suppose we were all suddenly very self conscious, but in time we all got used to it. of course, being from barker, we all had to get used to paying attention and cutting our hair. but it was all good for us. if barker created me, acjc refined me. meeting the acsi guys were a shock. i mean, we were primary school friends after all. how could 2 schools stand for the same values, but yet be so far apart? academically? in terms of student behaviour? public opinion? i seemed to be blessed with being put in great classes. i met 2se1, 2se1 are a great bunch of people, if you take away one of us, you wont have a complete class. these folks made my acjc experience complete, they make my want to go to class daily, cause its so damn fun. im sure we'll all do well for our A levels :)

when good ol oldham made acs in 18 something (its too long ago i forgot), i daresay he never expected it to expand into an entire family of 6 schools. but acs is not just an institution, thats too empty a word. acs is an identity, every person who passes through its gates will learn something from that experience. every boy who's life its changed will forever have the values the school stands for deeply imbued within him.

i know it sounds damn corny, this school has changed my life, its made me who i am. because its the only school i know. i also know there'll always be people like zhihuan who hate the school as much as we love it, but at least we know why. you can also find these breed of people in acjc, unhappy, disgruntled, full of hate, these are the people who dont want to be here. oh yes, you'd be suprised, so many kids appeal every year trying to get in, yet there are people within the school who hate it. they'll never find their place in our culture, because they didnt want to.

im damn freaking proud of this heritage. and im gonna preserve it as long as i can, even after i leave the school.

:) cheers and happy baccalaureate

next post on pictures taken tmr!

you see in every acs school that i've been to, i've received honours at least once. or at least that was so until i came to acjc. but seriously, my cca endeavours in this school are really pretty messed up haha. but i guess i just have to make up for it by going on stage one last time, the only time it matters.

some guys have started to receive their enlistment letters. i haven't gotten mine yet. actually i kinda hope i enlist in april, i'd fancy the free time to do things which i really wanted to do. like maybe go to cambodia and help the children, then step on a land mine and lose a few limbs, get downgraded and work as a clerk in the army. not a bad life eh? except i reckon the land mine part might hurt pretty bad.

i think about half my class are pes c and below. so they can slack off and play dota for 2 years, quite fun. but i was thinking about it, being a clerk has so many more merits. like going home everyday to see your parents and watch your pet cactus grow. and like if you only work 9 to 5 then at least you wont be so worried about your gf running off with some poly guy while you're trekking through the jungles of borneo, sweaty, exhausted, tired, with just the thought of her keeping you going. haha, very ironic, but thats just my imagination (life is more cruel, she'll run off with landon su). so i guess we should all turn gay cause then our gay partners will be there with us in borneo too. haha

um, school's ending, my next post shall be on that. 12 years in acs is quite hard to put into words, i guess im gonna need some time to compose all that. but in the mean time, study study study!