Haha the june holidays are over. I remember last year at this time, the A levels were speeding right ahead towards us. It seemed only just awhile ago that I was worrying about the impending prelim exams and the big monster behind it, the actual A level exams.

I remember the days of mugging late into the night in school like it was yesterday. I remember comparing Math mock paper answers with Chang in the void deck at 10pm, and also the long Physics discussions with Zhenghao. And how the auntie at the snack stall remembered exactly how I liked my coffee (thick and creamy, "nong nong" as she would call it lol). I remember the secret balcony up at the top level of Oldham Wing where I could retreat to mug quietly if I got sick of the library, hub, canteen, void deck or lt3. I remember the Venti Starbucks Christmas Blend with warm milk that I would take back to school from the Holland V Starbucks almost every day. I remember the good times and the fellowship and the encouragement that we all gave one another towards the end.

All these are lost now. The army is a terribly depressing and un-motivating place to work in. Everyday we follow the same fucking routine and the only variation we get is the variety of sai gang which we have to do which is seemingly infinite and who's scope is endless. The people I meet here are mostly selfish and unkind bastards who only care about their own welfare, and saving their own asses when shit happens. Unit life truly sucks.

But lifes like that ORD is coming soon and God gave me an un-expected encouragement gift 3 days ago which I am very excited about and I really thank him for his grace in this matter.

Ok heres more pics of the days leading up to November 17:


over here is a 2 S paper student who's wasting his life away to stupid card games 1 month before the A levels start ( little did he know that for 2 years from jan07 he'd have all the time in the world to waste his life away)


another shot of the dumbass, this time joined by another dumbass looking over his shoulder admiring how dumb the stupid card game truly is.


a younger johnny boy putting all his effort into studying hard for the A levels. GOOD JOB JOHNNY SHOW THE 2 S PAPER FAGGOT WHAT YOU'RE MADE OF GOGOGO

ok sorry but all these random ACJC nostalgia is just rushing back to me today I dont know why. Must be cause of the emo-ness I've acquired from the army.

early weekend!

my weekend starts tomorrow YESSS! on leave on thursday and friday to enjoy the remaining days of freedom with the gang.



WED 20 JUNE, SEE YOU THERE.

haha i stole this from shengs blog but its so funny i have to put this here lol lol





anyways, back to work tomorrow... then the fun starts again after 6pm on wednesday. i used 3 days of my annual leave to spend time with my buddies so im going to make the best of these 3 days and have as much fun as i can!

bah, im too tired to think anymore... cant be bothered to end this post properly. good night people

oh crap the weekend passed so quickly again hahahaha

Shit I had 5 venti vanilla latte's in the last week I feel like I've negated all the exercise I did during and after my bmt! I better go for a long run tomorrow morning. But its all my fault I should never have started drinking lattes they're more addictive than mambo music...

My 2nd driving lesson was good... Only stalled once and I'm starting to get used to the stupid retarded and gay but important half clutch technique, and I hit 50kmph for the first time which was kinda scary but exciting!

But really I'm trying my best to stay positive cause the next 20 months really does seem quite bleak for me... I need to look for stuff to occupy my mind with after I'm done with driving cause if not I'll just be rotting away in my office.

OK I shall end my short post here cause I didn't even intend to blog... just got really bored. So tomorrow the BMT school 2 people pass out and we're all set to have a super fun wednesday night! I CANT WAIT

Oh the anticipation! Oh the excitement and the thrill! The start of yet another work week in the SAF. And oh its so sweet that this tuesday marks the 2nd month of my acquaintance with my beloved 11B :)

So the weekend passed too quickly again, didnt even get to see sheng, chang or manav. But I'm glad that I've settled in to my office and I know how everything works now so I actually have stuff to do when I'm in there which makes time pass just a little bit faster... Spent most of the weekend shopping and bought like 2 shirts but whats more important is that i came across this:









OH JUST CHECK THESE BABIES OUT. The onitsuka tiger injector dx range is simply orgasmic! Too bad they cost like $199 and the special edition costs like $209, which is like all of my pathetic NSF pay. Looks like I'm going to have to ask my folks for cash again which kinda sucks cause it makes me feel like a loser who cant support himself but heck I AM A LOSER WHO CANT SUPPORT MYSELF :(

Ok, time to sleep now and until then I shall stay positive and ignore my sad predicament and look forward to short term goals such as ZOUK+NEWTON BAR ON WEDNESDAY or my very fun driving lessons.

And 2se1 peeps who are reading we should really go visit madam one of these weekends.. BMT guys damn free after june 13th so we can plan then!

OH YES THE WEEKEND IS HERE. But I've got this enormous shit load of work piled up in the office for me to do by tomorrow i worry i might have to stay late on my 2nd favourite day of the week :(

but today kinda passed real quickly BECAUSE i had so many things to do. time just flies when you are busy!

OK time for another random photo of the past when we were still oblivious to the horrors that awaited us after enlistment.

ok la this photo is almost 2 years old now so lets analyze it in the context of today.

1. gy used to look damn innocent OMG! how could that young and naive gy turn into such a horny and homosexual monster? must be our bad influence :(

2. arthur is wearing a jockey cap. this is very paradoxical as arthur is very lucky and will never have to wear a jockey cap in his life unlike us poor NSFs.

3. weizhi's right hand is in the classic "water parade" position, this is of course a very very horrible procedure to undergo in the SAF because we would most likely be embarking on some exhausting physical training session after the water parade.

4. 2 years ago you wouldnt have noticed DX was a part of this photo at first glace. now, you still wouldnt. Little did we know at that point in time that DX was practicing the skills of cover and concealment that he had honed to perfection during his NCC days.

5. I was wearing braces 2 years ago :)

6. we were all so happy then :)

OMG 3 POSTS IN 1 DAY WHY?!!!?!!!!

X says:
no love life
shaun - slaves of singapore says:
im in love with god
X says:
that sux
X says:
its like wanking



HAHAHA xavier owns

weekends,
the time of the week every NSF lives for.
a time for friends and good times,
a vague attempt to relive the glory of the old times.

for the coffee sessions (cigarettes included),
for the beer at newton bar,
for the fucking 9.50 movies.
weekends are all we have left, make the best of it boys.

sorry, i felt damn random cause i cant wait for the weekend :D :D :D
weekends are the only time i get to see familiar faces, because there isnt a single person in the entire camp whom i know from my past. and its damn sad and im damn lonely and i miss my soul which has been taken away on 12 apr 2007.

on a sidenote, i have regimental duty on fathers' day which is awful cause then i won't even be able to spend fathers' day with my dad. trying to buy someone elses sunday but its pretty hard cause no one wants to be stuck in camp for 24 hours on sunday :( pray i get it

sometimes i get emo and depressed and start thinking about freedom and a life free from the enslavement which i was subject to for the past 2 months. and when i think about how slowly these 2 months have passed, and that theres still 1 year and 8 months to go, i get like more depressed and thoughts of suicide flash through my mind and images of a bloody, violent death for my "captors" cloud my thoughts.

OK NO, dont get worried im not gonna kill myself i was purposely exaggerating it to make people scared. these 2 months have actually passed pretty quickly, before i know it it'll be christmas and then before i know it another christmas will pass and then ill see my pink ic again :D

i guess its always better to have a positive outlook no matter what you're going through. and if its really hard to have a positive attitude, just close your eyes and pretend its a dream. NS is just a dream, when we wake up in 2 years time we'll just forget about it and move on. We're actually so lucky that we're not regulars, for the regulars, NS is like a coma. They cant wake up. So pity them and dont hate them too much when they make you sign 3 extra, because they signed LIFETIME extra.

so thats they way i think of things now and i feel a little bit better. time for a run now and then coffee with friends later! only thing that sucks is im going to have to head home after coffee instead of going where we always go on wednesday night :(

but then again its all just a bad dream :))

hello im back on mainland for good now

contrary to popular belief, im actually quite sad that i had to downgrade. there goes my hopes of going ocs and commissioning in the safti parade square as an officer. but i dont have a choice la, the memories of the pain i went through in bmt are just too much to bear. sometimes my hip would hurt so much that i wouldnt even be able to sleep at night. i wasnt prepared to go though that kind of pain just to attain a rank and i dont want to go through that kind of pain again cause it really sucks.

but looking on the bright side, at least i get to book out everyday to see my parents and sleep on my bed and go online. and i can learn driving and get my license too! so it all doesnt seem too bad right now :)) but im gonna have to find ways to supplement my income or ill have to change my lifestyle. i simply cant survive on $350, spent $500 into my savings in just 2 months and i feel damn bad about it already...

went back to acjc with my class yesterday to collect our school graduation certs. the school hasnt changed one bit structurally, its still the same place i worked and played for 2 great years. but deep inside i know it has changed, an intake of no acsi boys and (increasingly) fucked up barker boys destroy the ac spirit and the influx of students from other schools diversifies the school culture which is a good and bad thing but i think its just a bad thing cause the thing that makes acjc stand out is our unique culture and our acs identity and that is being lost, sadly. i didnt want to admit it at first cause i was a barker boy but we really do need the acsi guys in acjc cause of they make up for like half our male population and without them now that vacancy is being filled up with like fucked up people.

dont get my views wrong i dont hate people from schools other than the ac feeder schools. but its just that theres too many of them now, just too many, so the school has to inevitably change for the (in my opinion) worst. i dont blame these kids, its not their fault. the blame lies with people i cannot name on this blog cause im too scared to do so. all i can say is that i think IB was a really bad idea, they could have just kept half of the acsi boys and sent the other half over to acjc but no, they had to keep all of them and give us like a very small handful.

ok i need to sleep now cause i have to go to work tomorrow and i have driving after that!!!

i miss those days

i miss those days

i miss those days

i miss those days

i miss those days

i miss those days

i wanna be 18 forever. i wanna lead the post A levels pre enlistment life forever. i know that even after ORD things will be different cause there'll be prep for university and we'll be like 21 already that would make us so bloody old and we'll have to be more responsible and stuff so we cant do stuff like make su go into the house of wax again :(

timetable for tomorrow :

1000 hrs - wake up
1030 hrs - do a few push ups (see a chinese doctor later if my hand still hurts)
1100 hrs - leave the house and head to the west
1105 hrs - call zh and sk
1200 hrs - meet sk to pass her my mp3 player if possible and zh for lunch
1230 hrs - meet phil to buy stuff
1300 hrs - meet the other guys
1330 hrs - buy the other stuff which i need for army
1430 hrs - have fun in town one last time
1430 onwards free and easy


so cool timetabling my whole day, then ill have to stick to it like im in the army. i've decided to revive this blog again, it'll be useful in storing my thoughts and memories throughout NS life.

she's the one that keeps the dream alive
from the morning
past the evening
till the end of the light!





yeah sorry i hate short posts too
so i promise to post properly soon?
lol

so many mistakes i make repeatedly despite telling myself not to commit them again

self conducted tour of smu yesterday was pretty fun. i guess its not a bad place to spend the last days of my academic life. the school is really very different, i've been to nus a few times already and i cant help but note that the two uni's are really very different from each other. its pretty hard to describe, i get a whole different feeling when im in smu. it almost feels like ac :)

in other news, im still real sad over my results, and my emo-ness over that is slowly infiltrating into other parts of my life. people have noticed and told me to fcuk off cause i didnt do that badly, but i didnt expect them to understand anyways so i dont care. ok nothing much else already, haha i've got a sore throat and a cold so im wondering if i should go for mambo tonight. i think i should though it'll cheer me up.

random advert : will be in acjc on friday, anyone interested to go?


emo emo get over it soon

:(

AAB B3. If you have been following my previous posts, then you'd know I am obviously disappointed with my results. I was so close yet so far. Yes, this bloody phrase again, "so close yet so far". My entire life has been a case of so close yet so far. I have been so close yet so far in so many situations they are now countless. I hate being almost there.

Another huge reason for my disappointment is that the B was for math. Of all the subjects that I had to get a B for, it had to be the one which I was positive that I would get an A in... If the B was in physics or chemistry maybe I would have took it better cause I would have been better prepared for that outcome. I was half expecting my physics to be a B anyways. It was probably careless mistakes that screwed me in the math paper. Its like a bloody joke huh...

Some people were telling me that my results were still good. To me, it doesnt really matter how good it is if it isnt as good as I wanted it to be. I wasnt on stage, I wasnt good enough. Its all about the targets that we set for ourselves, if I wanted to get 3B's and I received my current result, of course I'd be pleased. But I had aimed for a result which I failed to attain.

I know that some people are pissed at the way that I'm so sad even though I still did reasonably well. But please, understand that those were the results that I had been aiming for since the start of JC. And also, I think that for A levels, "doing well" is defined based on your personal target, as well as your course of choice. If your results are good enough to secure you a place in the course, you have done well. And I don't even know if I'll be able to secure that law interview with my current results. The B3 for gp was almost as disappointing as the B for math, its going to kill me later on in my life. It'll be a mistake that'll haunt me forever.

So my dreams of returning on founders day to receive my award will never come true. Just like the many other dreams and aspirations I've had but failed to achieve. I had always secretly wanted my parents to watch me receive my scholastic merit award on founders day, but now they never will. The last time they saw me receive an academic award, I was in primary 5. LOL. Now I don't know if they'll even get to see me receive an academic award again.

I'm slowly getting over it. I'm a little less angry with myself now than I was 2 days ago when I received my results. Maybe in a year or so I'll be able to put this behind me. I'm not joking, cause I know that at next years founders day, when a quarter of my cohort returns to receive their awards, Ill be in some army camp somewhere, feeling like shit and being unable to do anything about it. Whatever it is, I just know I won't get over this fast.

Like ZH says, life sucks.

12 more hours

it'll be the final gathering for the class of 06 in about 12 hours time. so sad, i probably wont see some of my school mates for the rest of my life.

i need to take it easy later, because i know i wont accept anything other than what i had set out to achieve. im still hoping the outcome is what i've been dreaming it to be, i dont know how im going to take it if isnt.

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm I CANT WAIT

Mmmmm so like as x pointed out to be just now in about 48 hours we'll be getting our results. I just cant wait, the huge amount of time we have between knowing when we'll be getting our results and receiving them causes a lot of unnecessary anxiety and etc.

Im actually very worried about the results, Im very afraid that I would not be able to to live up to the expectations I have set for myself. I just hope that I have done well enough, if not I would be very sad. But I have faith in Him, and thats all I need to carry me through till friday.

But I must say ah... its really damn stupid to judge students this way, through just one bloody crucial exam. Like since its just once then obviously luck will play a big part in it isnt it? Like how are we going to tell if smartest kid wakes up with a headache and cant think properly for the paper, while the dumbest kid guesses all the hard questions right. Seriously, exams like the O and A levels are damn dumb ideas.

Ahhh I hate the rain, because of the rain i couldnt go out today. I had so many things to do lar! now I just have to put it off till tomorrow.

I cant wait for friday.

i tried not to make this emo

I was going to make this another post-mambo post. but changed my mind cause there really is nothing much to talk about. Its always the same anyways, getting high and loving every second then waking up the next day feeling like shit.

So I realized that recently all my blog updates have become like post-mambo posts. How sad, its like I not longer feel motivated to continue blogging. I dont even know what im doing with my own life anymore, I feel so empty, I hate this emptiness. That big part of my life that involved going to school and being happy is suddenly gone, all I have left are memories. And even playing gets boring after awhile.

I was also accidentaly enlightened by someone about an issue I had already known but refused to accept. Damn it I'm being vague again it must be really boring and hard to read this blog. Sorry, I guess like only 5 people will understand what I'm talking about lol.

Moving on to happier topics, Qing believes that he is allergic to martini's.
















yeah ok I know stop laughing now.
But really qing i dont think its the martini, its probably the thing glennchee offered you that night lol.
yeah qing's nuts even when he's not high, its pretty funny.




and since you're all laughing already let me end the post with the funniest thing you've ever heard. its an sms from zhihuan in reply to one of my dumb responses to one of his serious sms-es. here it goes "Life isn't about getting laid cos you have hands. Its about finding your soulmate" lol yep thats the original version i didnt edit anything and i swear its the funniest shit i ever heard him say lol lol.

2 days ago i woke up and it dawned on me, the sudden realization that it was indeed again the most screwed up day of the year. 14 of feb can really piss u off. in secondary school when there were no girls no one used to care about it and all was well we would just treat it like any other normal day and go play lan after school or something, but then i went to jc right and suddenly everyone's making a big deal out of it and buying/making all kinds of crap for everyone else and all the girls are holding flowers and looking happy (for the first and only time in the entire year lol lol).

so being un-weird people we celebrated it the normal way, by trying to ignore this disgusting element of western tradition that has pervasively invaded our traditional and beautiful asian culture (ok la im exaggerating for kicks lol lol). mmmmm so anyways we met aaron after his lunch date to shop for stuff and got owned by some over agressive/enthusiastic shop keeper at far east. ok no we werent actually shopping at far east we were shopping for proper clothes then we decided to go to far east to buy random t-shirts.

so somehow we ended up at zouk, xavier's "2 friends" turned out to be a group of 10 people. Met loads of ac people there, loads of old friends, was real fun and crazy. about 12 of us met at the coffeeshop opposite zouk to have a drink which was more like several shots of vodka cause manav brought an entire bottle of absolut. mmmmm got pretty high even before we entered zouk and really it got worst but was real fun lol lol. lost the big group somewhere around 3am and thought it was going to get boring but guess what? lol ran into jan. so we hung out with jan's gang for awhile and etc.... taught qing a few important lessons about trannies lol, qing has a lot to learn about the hidden mysteries of gaysingapore. mmmmm so altogether had like 3 shots of vodka, 1 mug of heineken, 1 vodka sprite, another mug of beer, a lychee martini and many sticks of something lol. yep it was pretty fun getting all fcuked up and messed cause we're like 18 what better age to do so right...

learnt like moves for a few mambo songs too but they're all pretty gay i guess u can only pull em off if you're high hehehe.

mmmmmmm it was a great night hope to do it sometime again soon like tonight hehehehe.