the week in summary

everything recently got so complicated. and all those who know how about it will agree with me. THINGS GOT PRETTY SCREWED. shit, ill have to take the weekend to sort myself out. sigh. anyways, tomorrow we're going back to barker to visit the recruit dogs at recruit camp! lol. thats something i've been looking forward to, looking at how much more gay the sec1 kids are every year. everything else went OK this week, my bowling is improving, im finally getting over the shock of having only 3 guys in my class( yes now theres 1 new guy), and the number of days before i leave srjc can actually be counted!! wow, my days in hell are finally ending. :)




-till next time guys

LOST

oh shit. i lost my travelling virginity today.OMG, what will the people at AC say when they see this?? ok who cares... For the first time in my life i had to take public transport to school because my dad is overseas and my mum has to bring my sis to SCGS on the other side of the inland!! OK AC PEOPLE LAUGH NOW. i know what ur thinking(haha he's finally turning into 1 of them, no more arriving in school in fancy cars etc.) But i must say, mrt's are quite cool in the morning. its super empty so u can sleep well. haha. After my train ride i walked the 800m from kovan to my sch. My feet actually felt cool because of my adidas climacool. My trusty climacool. What a cool shoe, it went through thick and thin with me, in fact, it probably went through more with me than most of u out there READING THIS NOW. haha, u know who u are. But how can i compare my friends to my shoes, my shoes cant talk to me etc.. dont worry brudders, u'll always be more importantto me than my shoes. LoL

take me away

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I cannot find a way to describe it
It's there inside, all I do is hide
I wish that it would just go away
What would you do, you do, if you knew
What would you do

All the pain I thought I knew
All the thoughts lead back to you
Back to what was never said
Back and forth inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable, come and take me away

I feel like I am all alone
All by myself I need to get around this
My words are cold, I don't want them to hurt you
If I show you, I don't think you'd understand
Cause no one understands

All the pain I thought I knew
All my thoughts lead back to you
Back to what was never said
Back and forth inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable, come and take me away
I'm going no where
I'm getting no where

Take me away

Break me away

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1S22

Today i met my class. and guess what?!? My class consists of 20 girls and 2 guys. WTF!!! What kind of crappy class making method does SRJC use man. This is so screwed. Im damn scared that they'll all gang up to pwn me or something.OH SHIT SOMEBODY SAVE ME. i havent even seen the other guy yet, what if he Turns Out(in case he's not some half girl but some 120kg rugger and happens to read this) to be some half girl too? crap. im scared. this is worst than the worst horror movie ever..

:)

today i was wondering during GP. like i always do. and i realised how mean this world is. people, lets stop being mean, be nice to ur mums, feed your dogs, do your homework. im sorry Mrs G . C, i didnt mean to be mean by laughing for 2 whole hours when i heard that ur husband died. but i was pissed. it is ur fault that im not in ACJC. but now i know, ITS MY OWN FAULT THAT IM NOT IN ACJC. life sux, i suck. im sorry people if i was mean to u before, i wont be mean anymore, because not being mean is very meaningful to you. guys, remember, be nice, and JESUS LOVES U KIDS.

(P.S: The usage of the various forms of mean is meant to be deliberete im not that stupid)

Fallen

Heaven bent to take my hand
And lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight
Truth be told I've tried my best
But somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
And the cost was so much more than I could bear

Though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I have messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...
We all begin with good intent
Love was raw and young
We believed that we could change ourselves
The past could be undone
But we carry on our backs the burden
Time always reveals
The lonely light of morning
And the wound that would not heal
It's the bitter taste of losing everything
That I have held so dear.

Heaven bent to take my hand
Nowhere left to turn
I'm lost to those I thought were friends
To everyone I know
Oh they turned their heads embarassed
Pretend that they don't see
But it's one missed step
One slip before you know it
And there doesn't seem a way to be redeemed

SRJC

right so schools started for a week. and i found out that srjc really isnt that bad. made some new friends and stuff. actually i think the school only sucks to me because everyone went to ac except me. ohwell, at least ill be there in march.. hopefully. in the mean time ill just have fun in srjc. skipping lectures and running out of school at 10am. lol. and this is the first time i've blogged for half a year! so thats cool