haha i changed address, i've always thought singwhenitrains sounded damn gay, but i never really got the chance to change it.

so while thinking of a new address, i consulted sean ng and he told me that i was asking for suggestions because i dont know who i am, thats why i cant think of a proper name for my blog. then he proceeded to suggest a gay address "searchingfortheanswer.blogspot" since i was searching for my own identity. yeah, great help he was.

then later that day, i realized that actually there was a unique word that people would associate with my name. STYUIOP. hahaha, my email since primary 2 beat that bitch! so when people see styuiop, they think of ST. therefore ST's blog should be STyuiop. then i called qing, and qing told me he reckoned it was a good idea to change it to styuiop too, which made me have second thoughts about it cause qing's good ideas are always bad.

but anyways, i still changed it. so there you go, something new to type in the address bar when you want to get to my blog. but then again i know that most of u lazy people get linked here from class blog or something.

the break on friday was pretty good, i just dotaed the entire day and got pissed off enough with zhihuan to run to his house to throttle him until i realized that asshole doesnt have one and i'll probably get throttled instead since he knows how to fight karate or some bullshit now. ah well, ill just wait till they legalize firearms cause no matter how many ha dou ken's you can do, you cant stop my bullet. HAHAHA.

yesterday was supposed to be the buffer day, you know, like when i try start mugging again i need time to get used to it, but in the end i just ended up boozing at hog's breath cafe and watching man u get owned by wharton. hog's breath not bad la, except they dont serve heineken like wtf....

theres F1 later, 2 ferrari's followed by 2 renaults in the first starting positions! how fun.

prelims are suddenly not so fun anymore.

i had never thought that i would ever feel stressed out this year. or at least, not so soon. but last night, while mugging for physics, i had my first real taste of stress. that horrible, sick feeling you get when you're under too much pressure, when theres so much to do but so little time left to do it with. and you're so helpless because you cant do anything about it and no one can save you from this unbearable, pressing load. that feeling sucks. i remember towards the end of sec4, i felt like that every single day. shit, i hated it.

at least im glad the written papers are all over, just chem mcq left to mug for :)

tomorrow, im going to take the whole day off just to chill at home, i think i deserve it. i havent had proper, undisturbed sleep for weeks now. i really need this break, no matter how short it is.

now i know what the A levels are really like, and i used to think those suicide/drop out rates were ridiculous because of all the fun i was having in ac. hah

and even when your hope is gone
move along, move along
just to make it through.

MUSTS

tomorrow, i must have my coffee in the morning,
i must be alert.
i must not be over-confident,
nor too unsure of myself.
pray before the exam,
and again after.

i invested too much to screw up tomorrow, i must not

haha sorry something happened in the previous post about the "grading system", it didnt come out as expected, but i editted it already so its fine now.

so the prelims have started, its horrible. i dont want to talk about it. i really dont understand why they make the prelim papers so bloody hard. i mean, since i did like 20 physics paper 1's, i personally know that you can score higher for the rj, hc, vj and nj papers than for the ac papers. how gay is that huh? and its not even like we do better than them for A levels.

yeah, i really hope i can get CEE un-moderated. i mean like i actually put in effort for these exams, i havent mugged for damn long, like since sec 4. so it would be nice to see some fruits during prelims, even if they arent like uber ripe yet. if you get what i mean. haha

Mugging!


yesterday's mugging/coffee intoxication session was damn hardcore, after chem tuition in the morning we went to holland v starbucks where i drank a large brazillian cherrado or something. then we went for physics for another hour and a half, followed by more coffee at holland v coffee bean. so i drank about one litre of coffee altogether, mmmmmm ownage.

so the prelims are almost here, like the days left to prelims are less than the number of cups of coffee i have a day. everybody is proficient in at least one subject now, but for most of the people i know its like physics (because almost the entire level has physics tuition now). a lot of physics takers i know also screwed their chem revision big time. many conversations with many people tell me our timetable after prelims will consist of about 4hours of chem tutorials a day. haha.

so for the people who were slacking too much dont even know the A level grading system, i will sacrifice some of my important mathematical induction revision time to explain the system to you.

Grade (Mark Range)
A (Atrocious) 70<
B (Bad!) 65-70
C (Cannot make it) 60-65
D (Dazzling) 55-60
E (Excellent) 50-55
AO (Ah! Outstanding!) 45-50
F (Fantastic) 45>

hopefully, all of you will do (F)antastically well for your prelims! haha

my head is saturated, i cant do anymore work, i cant even think straight now. physics is very taxing on the brain, especially dumb prelim papers with weird, complicated questions.

physics is kinda like love right? when u have have too little, you get owned. when u have too much, you still get owned. ahaha. ok la, this entire post is damn stupid, because i cant think at all, because of phyiscs...

when i showed su my gp file that day, he made the astute observation that my gp grades are going down. well, i guess we can attribute that to the fact that i started mugging for other subjects so i have less time to think about like, general stuff (like you write about general stuff in general paper right). come to think of it, i do spend a lot of time thinking, i think thats because of my CI personality. haha. but anyways i got my latest assignment back today and its not so bad, i hope my marks are starting to climb again. but i also noticed the trend la, i usually get lower marks for the assignments in which i rant mindlessly.

i photocopied the ******* JC physics prelim paper from the library that day, i guess its a welcome escape from the hell that the RJ and HC papers we usually do are. like as a student sometimes i think its good to do some of these papers, at least its better for our morale than those other papers. but then again, if we're accustomed to difficult papers the A's will be a breeze. wow look, i examined both sides of the issue, its like the subconscious gp talent in me. ok whatever, haha. time to mug for stats test tmr.

ahhh school is ending too soon! its ending too fast, gosh, theres still so many things i havent done, so much fun i havent had, so much work i havent done. i cant believe its gonna be over so soon.

today mrs chan was quite sad when she was talking to us about the newspaper article, i've havent really seen her that sad before. but ah well, i guess we just have to cheer her up by getting 3A's and above for 50% of the cohort or something.

then im like doing my dumb personal statement for my graduation cert now. i think its such a dumb idea, like how am expected to praise myself? and what a bad time to make us write this, prelims are in like 12 days and we still have to worry about this. i remember even pw stopped for awhile during promos last year.... ah ok no more ranting, im making seem like i have nothing better to do when actually i do, like tons of work, loads of prelim papers, truckloads of essays, bucketfulls of coffee.

speaking of coffee,
IM SO GLAD COFFEE EXISTS,
like i would just collapse in class without it. surviving on 4hours of sleep a night is no joke.

ok, im just so worried about my chem now. so worried