ok i think i got over my prelims. so i think im ready to talk about it now. i've thought it all out, lying in my bed on friday night, unable to sleep until 4am. i think god wants me to mug more, i know that sometimes im really quite slack. if i want to do well, i should devote every waking hour to mugging, and not just waste time chatting on the phone or thinking about my lost love dota.

actually, i think doing countless prelim mcq papers kinda contributed to my mess up too. like after doing so many mcq's, im too used to working things out quickly and taking shortcuts. not showing adequete working and stuff. even so, i dont think ill ever in this life of mine be able to accept the fact that i mugged so hard for physics, and still screwed up. but i guess for prelims, effort doesnt equate to results.

when i first got the papers back, i felt this rush of hate towards the entire physics department. why did they have to mark so strictly and be so picky? why didnt they appreciate the effort that i put in? but now i know, they want us to realize many things, that our answers must be well organized, we must know what the examiner wants us to see from that question, because examiners are essentially dumb, therefore we have to show every single small formula, step, equation, proof, definition, statement, SI unit, diagram and whatever other thing we learnt in the first 5 minutes of each lecture (before we fall asleep) this 2 years.

i must say im not looking forward to the end of the A levels. you see, while peeps like dx are busy counting the days left to the start of A levels, im counting the days left to the end. its a kind of dread to realize that my 12 years of schooling have gone by so fast, and that there are less days left to my NS enlistment than i had to mug for A levels. haha, time to get back to the books. i know god will not forsake me, as will he not to the many other friends i have in ac who have done badly. he will honour our hard work.