so my daily conversations with God go something like:
"hey God, A levels are damn scary"
"yes sonny, have faith, be strong"
"ok father, but im still very scared of chem"
"well thats cause you decided to fool around all this while innit"
"can i take physics and maths now? so i can get over it, i hate waiting, but i wanna take chem in 3 months time"
"whats your problem? i have 10000 other prayers to answer you know"
amen.

so my conversations with God are very healthy and i always learn something out of every one. dont ask me how i hear him. i guess we all can, in our hearts. frequently, when we are in the exam hall waiting for the paper to begin, i close my eyes and pray too. when i can hear Him, i know it'll all be ok.

Chemistry is like this big leap of faith for me, just that the hangtime is going to be about 4 months. as oppsed to the usual leaps we take in which we take moments to land again right. and the longer you stay in the air, no more doubts you have, you wonder how you're going to land, you wonder if you're going to land.
its so horrible
its so scary.

well, in other news, saddam is going to hang. i dont know why but i feel a tinge of sadness. i mean, he's been like such a big part all these world events and etc, then suddenly he has 30 days left to live unless his appeal is successful. why dont they just imprison him for life? i've always thought that the death penalty was damn messed. its so final, because once you're dead thats it.

heres where i end. i doubt there'll be another update till the end of my exams. until then, we should all pray, hard. through him, we will be more than conquerors.

"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God" - Philippians 4:6

The LORD is my light and my salvation,
whom shall i fear?
The LORD is the stronghold of my life,
of whom shall i be afraid?
-Psalm 27:1