AC? Or will i burn in hell again?

Right now, thats the question in my mind. ACJC or not? This really is so messed. Why was i trying so hard to enter AC in december, but now, i dont give a shit? Maybe its cause i wasnt in for the first 3 months, but i was already in for 10 years, shouldnt i feel a sense of loyalty to the school? Its probably cause of all the shit i hear about the fucked up teachers.

But the value of an ACS education really is great. The people u get to know, the connections u make etc... Cuz every AC student will grow up to do cool stuff next time. we all know that. Even lamers like sdu who go to poly will probably start his own successful chain of restaurants or travel agencies etc.. One day i could be asking qing to help me sue LCD for crashing is toyota corolla ALTIS into the back of my Bently Continental GT right???

Hopefully going back to school tmr will reaffirm my commitment to go into acjc. And i really hope ill be able to make it in. Good luck whoever is getting they're o level results tmr. Im sure we'll all do fine in the end

Thursdays

Thursdays usually suck. Its like my super long say in SR. But this thursday was good. haha. I left school at 10am after feigning sickness and went home to sleep! You'll never know how badly i needed that 2 hours man. Im suddenly 10X more tired in JC. Maybe its cuz i have to keep running away from lectures. LOL

Ok so O level results are coming soon. This is probably how im gonna feel with whatever marks i get:

6-10 - LOL this is too good. i studied 3 weeks and got this?? its impossible, so ill like, take of my shirt and run around Singapore 6 times or summat.
10-12 - OK, at least i can go to AC. But it probably wont get this score too
12-15 - i was expecting this. So ill just be.. expressionless
15-16 - maybe ill go CJ. i dont how ill feel..
17-20 IM GONNA FUCKING CRY AND JUMP OFF THE FIFTH FLOOR of barker..

Anyways, even if i get between 11-14.. i dont know if i should go ac to do 3 subjects o go cj to do 4... sigh. Im in a dilemma

haha. just thought ill post this here... me and j pang at grad night!! what a cool dude, hope to see him in ac soon so i can screw him up more :) 

Serangoon Special Part 2

Alright im gonna blog abt srjc again while i wait for su to finish his dinner to play dota with me. Im gonna tell u guys, theres really nothing wrong with srjc, the teachers are great, the students are great (until march), but the school sux. i dont know how to explain it, the school just sux. Is it because its a wtfjc? probably

So after our 5km road race today our principal spoke to us. She was talking stuff about how its not winning but participating that matters. That is like so wrong. Thats a losers excuse to losing. They only tell this to all the losers. Because winning isnt everything, its the only thing. If you dont win you're nothing. Thats what life's like, face it. I know... like how the wtfss guy stole my place in ac because he did better than me. i lost to him.

Thats probably why srjc sux so much, we dont care about winning. Even when we get 4th position for some kind of unknown competition the principal still looks happy. Thats why the school sux, loser school. I pity the principal, she's a nice lady, she shouldn't even be the principal of such a fucked up place. ah well... i pity myself too but self pity is screwed.

TESTS TESTS TESTS!!!

damn. i think i messed up chem test part 1. it was like damn tedious and tricky. so different from the tutorials. and chem test part 2 and c math test are tmr. i also got my damn econs project(which i havent started on yet) to hand up by friday. crap, i should really start mugging, all the times i tried to mug i just ended up doing like 5 questions and slacking off after that.

i just bowled 5 hours in 1 day. tuesday night and wednesday afternoon. my arm feels even more screwed. my sprain got worst. maybe i really wont recover from it, ill just cry and die. whats more, i accidentaly cut my thumb last night, so my thumb was like bleeding freely. after bowling my thumb was like damn bloody. lol, it was quite sick. but it didnt hurt, i dont know why.

oh yeah. i got 18/20 for the gay ass c math test 1!!! haha,i didnt even mug for it. Serangoon standard for maths is really damn low, but i reckon their chem and chinese standard are pretty much as good or better than ac. like mr ang says, its not the school, its the students.

chill

oh crap

crap.. i forgot to change "the wind wrote in the water at 7pm" thing last week... so much for my punctuality. ahhhh well who cares, at least now that my deadline is over i wont have one to meet. lol

Serangoon Special part 1 - V day

Since i got nothing better to write about this whole week cause common test week is damn boring. ill blog about serangoon. yes, the shit hole. yes, my temporary hell. And since its part 1, im gonna talk about how nice it is.

IF I WAS HAPPY in serangoon jc for 1 day, it would be V day. Yes fools, valentines day. I have never seen such coolness in serangoon before. councillors dressed up as pirates to wish the school happy V day right after assembly to song dedications during recess. We could hear those big speakers blasting music the whole day so that it was damn hard for the teachers to teach in level 1 classrooms. And since the chem tutor was absent for 1 whole period we were slacking in the corridor listening to music.. Even ugly girls exchanging valentines day gifts with even uglier girls. valentines day spirit eh?

Since SRJC isnt nice at all, u cant expect me to write very much. so ill stop here. come back when i whine about how screwed it is. Ur page will take 1 hour to load cause it'll be a DAMN LONG BLOG.

haha a 6 day weekend.

I skipped sch again today so that gives me a 6 day weekend!! Haha this feels like march school holidays. I was just stoning online for the whole day until now. Gonna go for ac idol with qing and ??su and ws?? later.

Actually.. i should be at the pro shop collecting my ball which has just been replugged but fuck it. its gonna take like an hour which means i have to sacrifice 1 DOTA GAME!! lol. Its Common Test Week next week, i better start mugging on saturday. knowing serangoon's standard.. ill probably pwn it even if i didnt mug this weekend. lol.

ahhhhh... ill probably go train and collect my ball with nick tomorrow. thank god i found another bowling fanatic who's parents are willing to blow 30 bucks a week on training with me. if not training solo will be damn boring. ok i typed enough time to go back to my dota.

peace out

shit

shit the "the wind wrote in the water at 10pm" thing is really damn screwed. the ah beng i copied the template from had it. ill resolve myself to make a new one by the end of this week

yeah CNY!!

i love being chinese, for our culture. that is. unlike qing, who hates chinese because of chinese. And its Chinese New Year's Eve today. skipped my bloody useless crappy school today to go out with the barker peeps to play pool and watch constatine.. which pwns all!! then we went to get qing's sex band for and from the wrong reasons and context man. lol.

i dont feel like blogging anymore. its too boring. sian

the week in summary

everything recently got so complicated. and all those who know how about it will agree with me. THINGS GOT PRETTY SCREWED. shit, ill have to take the weekend to sort myself out. sigh. anyways, tomorrow we're going back to barker to visit the recruit dogs at recruit camp! lol. thats something i've been looking forward to, looking at how much more gay the sec1 kids are every year. everything else went OK this week, my bowling is improving, im finally getting over the shock of having only 3 guys in my class( yes now theres 1 new guy), and the number of days before i leave srjc can actually be counted!! wow, my days in hell are finally ending. :)




-till next time guys

LOST

oh shit. i lost my travelling virginity today.OMG, what will the people at AC say when they see this?? ok who cares... For the first time in my life i had to take public transport to school because my dad is overseas and my mum has to bring my sis to SCGS on the other side of the inland!! OK AC PEOPLE LAUGH NOW. i know what ur thinking(haha he's finally turning into 1 of them, no more arriving in school in fancy cars etc.) But i must say, mrt's are quite cool in the morning. its super empty so u can sleep well. haha. After my train ride i walked the 800m from kovan to my sch. My feet actually felt cool because of my adidas climacool. My trusty climacool. What a cool shoe, it went through thick and thin with me, in fact, it probably went through more with me than most of u out there READING THIS NOW. haha, u know who u are. But how can i compare my friends to my shoes, my shoes cant talk to me etc.. dont worry brudders, u'll always be more importantto me than my shoes. LoL

take me away

---

I cannot find a way to describe it
It's there inside, all I do is hide
I wish that it would just go away
What would you do, you do, if you knew
What would you do

All the pain I thought I knew
All the thoughts lead back to you
Back to what was never said
Back and forth inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable, come and take me away

I feel like I am all alone
All by myself I need to get around this
My words are cold, I don't want them to hurt you
If I show you, I don't think you'd understand
Cause no one understands

All the pain I thought I knew
All my thoughts lead back to you
Back to what was never said
Back and forth inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable, come and take me away
I'm going no where
I'm getting no where

Take me away

Break me away

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1S22

Today i met my class. and guess what?!? My class consists of 20 girls and 2 guys. WTF!!! What kind of crappy class making method does SRJC use man. This is so screwed. Im damn scared that they'll all gang up to pwn me or something.OH SHIT SOMEBODY SAVE ME. i havent even seen the other guy yet, what if he Turns Out(in case he's not some half girl but some 120kg rugger and happens to read this) to be some half girl too? crap. im scared. this is worst than the worst horror movie ever..

:)

today i was wondering during GP. like i always do. and i realised how mean this world is. people, lets stop being mean, be nice to ur mums, feed your dogs, do your homework. im sorry Mrs G . C, i didnt mean to be mean by laughing for 2 whole hours when i heard that ur husband died. but i was pissed. it is ur fault that im not in ACJC. but now i know, ITS MY OWN FAULT THAT IM NOT IN ACJC. life sux, i suck. im sorry people if i was mean to u before, i wont be mean anymore, because not being mean is very meaningful to you. guys, remember, be nice, and JESUS LOVES U KIDS.

(P.S: The usage of the various forms of mean is meant to be deliberete im not that stupid)

Fallen

Heaven bent to take my hand
And lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight
Truth be told I've tried my best
But somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
And the cost was so much more than I could bear

Though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I have messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...
We all begin with good intent
Love was raw and young
We believed that we could change ourselves
The past could be undone
But we carry on our backs the burden
Time always reveals
The lonely light of morning
And the wound that would not heal
It's the bitter taste of losing everything
That I have held so dear.

Heaven bent to take my hand
Nowhere left to turn
I'm lost to those I thought were friends
To everyone I know
Oh they turned their heads embarassed
Pretend that they don't see
But it's one missed step
One slip before you know it
And there doesn't seem a way to be redeemed

SRJC

right so schools started for a week. and i found out that srjc really isnt that bad. made some new friends and stuff. actually i think the school only sucks to me because everyone went to ac except me. ohwell, at least ill be there in march.. hopefully. in the mean time ill just have fun in srjc. skipping lectures and running out of school at 10am. lol. and this is the first time i've blogged for half a year! so thats cool

my first blog

is a damn test. test...test... ok it works