I'm sick again :(

And its really a bad time to fall ill, there are so many things I need to do at work these 2 weeks! I can't believe I'm actually disappointed that I'm ill though, awhile ago I would have been happy to get a 3 day MC... I guess it's all a matter of integrity, I hate to inconvenience my colleagues.

un-connected events sorry

are you enjoying the first weekend of the new year?


I want to go to the national museum soon. I haven't been there since its makeover, and I heard its pretty nice now. Actually I liked it even before the renovation, it was a nice place to go and learn about random, interesting things. And I generally like colonial architecture, theres something about the grandeur and the richness of colonial buildings which makes them very appealing.

Last week I had breakfast with a friend at the Delifrance at Holland V. I've only been there once before that and I'm not really a Delifrance fan but I have to say there's a really a good reason why the cafe is so empty at Holland V... I don't know if this occurance is just an instance or if it's a wide-spread thing but the breakfast is just bad. I was served better pastry for breakfast on a damn airplane, the coffee was so strong it was like 6 shots of espresso poured into 1 coffee cup and then served, and the waffles were frighteningly similar to the instant waffles one can get from any supermarket. It was horrible. When I went to the same Delifrance for breakfast almost 3 years ago before the first Chem SPA of my A levels it wasn't so bad! In fact I think I enjoyed it. I wonder what happened.... But I hope what happened to me was more of an exception than a norm la.. Maybe the chef was having a bad day or something. Haha

I like Guiness draught. Cheers

No! You're not at the wrong blog...


I've changed my template! I made the font size larger so that its easier to read now and the background isn't so black anymore so its not such a bleak affair reading this blog. But of course, that is not to say I intended my old background to be emo la, it was more like a lack of effort on my part to find a nice template.. Oh and not to mention that old background was quite bengish because the person who designed that template and put it on the blog template site was an Ah Lian. So I'm quite pleased that this site no longer looks like some Ah Beng Diary. But its all well now, except maybe this blog looks too bright now and it might take a little bit of getting used to.

Anyway, Happy New Year to everybody!
I hope 2008 pasts really quickly, then I can ORD and get on with my life.. And I achieved my New Year Resolution 20 hours after making it, how stupid. Now I have to think of a new goal to work towards for the rest of the year....

And now, its time to brace myself for yet another year of shit before I'm free again!

1am on sunday morning

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shaun - slaves of singapore says:
zoukout must be damn boring tonight... cause you are not there

Education is dangerous: The Mafia only kills someone if they knew too much..... says:
fuck u

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we all love zh!

Time seems to pass more slowly now though.. It used to go by pretty fast when I first came in, but now that I'm nearing the mid term of my service it seems to have slowed down a lot. I won't say that life has improved or gotten worst, but at least I'm used to the army now. I know what to expect and how to get through each day.

My new posting is definitely more welcome than the previous one. Apart from the absense of regimentation, my colleagues here are also better educated so I find it easier to communicate with them. My job is also very fulfilling. I think its wonderful that I get this chance to work with people who are less privileged. It's been a real eye opener and I'm sure it'll stay this way till the end. I have a lot to learn from this new unit and I hope there will be a positive change in the way I view the world by the end of my service.

But no matter where you are in the SAF, as long as you're an NSF its gonna suck. I know I shouldn't be complaining here so I won't. But there's more to my job than meets the eye.

Apart from boring army matters, I've also gotten my driving license. Actually that's not such a good thing, driving is a pretty heavy responsibility. I used to just knock out in my parents' cars when I was younger not knowing that the person behind the wheel actually has to be alert all the time and possess the skills and judgement to maneuver through the local traffic. Anyways it was fun ridin and rollin with the gang on friday night. Hahahahaha.

Mambo tomorrow. Super crowded. But who cares, I cant go for another month.

464 days to ORD.

I know I can do it, this is an easier race than the A levels. Its just longer and more full of shit.

gosh i havent blogged for so long

i've been following the Myanmar protests quite closely and i'm very saddened by the recent developments... the use of violence as a means to disperse the crowds is really un-called for. its a bloody peaceful protest, why the hell must they use tear gas and guns and batons wtf.

i think its a very immature way to handle the situation. negotiations should be made with the people, see what they want first. i think the root cause of the problem was the rise in fuel prices, and then deep inside the people were already regarding the junta with much resent. the only reason why it has been so peaceful till now is cause of the bloody fear which the government strikes in the hearts of the helpless citizens. so until now there wasnt any real reason for the citizens to rebel cause they could still live with it.

but i mean like now you fucking double the price of fuel and expect people who earn so little to live with it? seriously wtf.

sometimes i really wonder why the world is like that and why all these people have to suffer. and i really feel sorry for them and i wish them all the best in their quest for democracy and i hope that one day they will be able to see democracy in their nation for themselves.

i hope the UN helps, and i hope the violence stops :(

pray for them

Wow a 201st post! I never thought this blog would come so far... I was browsing through the archives and I realized that I could actually watch myself grow and mature through all the posts over the last few years! Thats not to say I'm very mature now la but still.... lol. I actually don't want grow up :(

So lets talk about how all the guys in combat vocations have disappeared.. Everytime I drive past the ferry terminal on my way home from Helldon, I'll look at the distant shores of the Magical Island of Dreams and remember su who is 5km away pumping recruits who are 1 year older than us. But he'll be confined till the end of the month with his little recruits. And then theres Sheng, who disappeared on a 2 month trip to cheong sua in his tank in taiwan. I remember him too, every single time I log onto BNet to realize that our clan has been disbanded because he didn't renew the chieftain's login before he left. And theres GY, who's in combat but is somehow staying out to plague BNet with his proness. I remember GY everytime i get on BNet too.

Yeah ok sorry I just decided to blog about something random. And I really hope I get that transfer. Good night.

Proud parents of a 3SG:

shiet i have more photos but its on my razr which is like not usable now cause my sim card is in my non-camera phone so :(

but attending the aslc graduation was really fun, because i went as a civilian. the rank-holders (even the regulars) treat u so differently when u are a civilian, because when u are a civilian u have a voice and u cant be forced to follow orders just because they are orders. it was very amusing..... when i was a civilian and i went for military functions i took all these for granted, but now i can see the difference.

so when i went home i felt sad. one of the things that bothers me about servicenational is that your social status drops the moment you surrender your pink ic. we arent accorded the same amount the respect as we used to have been given as civilians. and i dont see a reason for this, how does this make the ymra function better? i dont see why they have to take away my dignity. i dont know if i should have just said that.

it also bothers me that i actually have to ask myself if i should or shouldnt have said that... if you get my drift.... lol wtf am i saying! i think im just whining, no point talking about change if you cant do anything about it right. goodnight

awww <3 remember how happy we were when we were young? i remember the exact circumstances in which this photo was taken. qing was showing su how his new 3310 had a cool game called snake2 which totally ownz snake1 on 8250 so we should all get 3310 and maybe one day in 2007 we could also use 3310's as like bricks and maybe like sledge hammers....

ok that wasnt what really happened. it was actually qing's birthday on 19 dec 05 and we somehow ended up at su's place but what i really want people to see from this photo is how cute and innocent the young qing was: no piercing, no game, but still the classic emo specs and the cool shortness :)

and the scary thing is that this photo was taken less than 2 years ago although it felt much longer... it makes me wonder how long ORD will take to come :((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

additional announcement:
su's popping on thursday who wants to come? i have a PLC carpark label and infinite tickets so if u wanna go contact me!!!! so far qing and i are going and su's parents arent in singapore or something so it wont be very weird or intrusive on the emotional moment of the elder su's putting on the no-pride 3 arrows/ chevrons/ mark of ocs-rejects (ok sorry) on su's sleeve because such a thing will not happen. i will nevertheless be proud of su because he went through sispec delta.

so heres a random update of what i've been doing up till now! and for a change ill do it in pictures, so i dont have to type cause i'm starting to become lazy and stupid.

(ok la not really..... i just found these photos in my phone so i thought i should put them here as memories)

18 Aug

absolut bling!

a random decision to drop by newton bar for an all night risk/ movie marathon! it was a super fun night full of funny random occurances that ill remember for quite some time lol :D

4 AUG

ACS barker scouts gangshow! Going back to catch up with the rest of the alumni and juniors was damn amazing. It was great seeing everyone again. And since I hardly go back to barker I went all the way to the clocktower just to pay dear Oldham a visit. I like this sculpture cause of the words on its plate:

Bishop Oldam so lived his days that others would have tomorrows.
We who are heirs of this great Institution must also surely play our part.
The past we inherit, The present we create
but to those who hope, work and play
The Best Is Yet To Be

-T. W Hinch, Principal, ACS

So now we know where those words printed at the top of the acjc classroom block came from! Haha its actually very meaningful, i should try and remember these words as i go about in the course of my daily life and perhaps i'd be able to live a more fulfilling ns life?

Random date in late july

Qing and I were starbucks-ing at paragon when suddenly:

whatuf

whatuf X 2

whatuf whatuf whatuf!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yeah... this group of people appeared in star wars costumes and they actually went to the counter to buy coffee so that was pretty hilarious lol!

Ok more updates soon!!!

ARGH THE FORMATTING FOR THIS ENTIRE POST IS SCREWED UP CAN SOMEONE TELL ME WHY ITS LIKE THAT? I DIDNT MEAN FOR ALL THE WORDS TO STICK TOGETHER AND BE SO HARD TO READ BUT WTF IT TURNED OUT LIKE THAT WTF. maybe its my blog skin, i should change my blog skin i've been meaning to do so for a long time...

wow time really really flies, su is coming back already. 3 weeks just flew by so fast, i hope its like that all the time!!! anyways we're all quite proud of you su, you're one of the only few fighting fit personnel left among all of us.... hahahaha

oh shit, 4 more hours to my book in :( :( :(

SLEEP
and su's plane will land even before i book out how sad

so i've got half an hour of my birthday left to go....

i guess im happy la, while army has lowered my standards of what to expect it still was a meaningful and fulfilling day so thank you for today if you were part of it.

1 more birthday holding 11B ENDURE!!!!!!!!

i just read auguries of innocence by william blake. such a familiar poem, every barker boy can relate to the starting verses :

To see a world in a grain of sand
And a heaven in a wild flower,
Hold infinity in the palm of your hand
And eternity in an hour.

i love this poem so much because it celebrates youth, and innocence, and purity. it represents everything we've lost to the organisation. blake is so cool because the general theme of most of his work revolves around stuff like these, and also his dissatisfaction at the moral state of society. so these are all things that i believe in also and i can really relate to him and i think thats cool.

ok, i would elaborate more but like im really tired i need to sleep now lol SOMEBODY GET ME OUT OF HERE.

:(

i wish you guys were around for me to share moments like these with. i mean like, theres so many newbs in the world to own before ord, i cant possibly do it alone right?! its like an uphill task, pwning these newbs all by myself. i feel so lonely and powerless, fighting against this mad rush of newbs suddenly bursting in my direction the moment i create a game on BNet. i feel like im the only pro left on BNet now that all of you are in army :(

and like since xavier is like a newb like the rest of the newbs in the world it wont make a difference after he OOTs. i need someone like su or wong or chang or manav or whatever :(

ok la im not that serious about dota la hahaha... army has made me realize that life is more than playing computer games and owning noobs on bnet. life is about spending your time well and being a blessing to others and doing good things and being the person that god wanted you to be.

but its so hard to be like that in the army. i need god to empower me, i need god to give me strength to be different and do things right for once....

HOW TO BE A CLERK 101

HOW TO BE A CLERK IN THIS ORGANISATION 101

1) Don't let anyone know what you are doing

2) Act blur in all situations

3) Don't stay in your office if your officer is around

4) Intimidate your colleagues (especially if you are the new guy), so that they wont dare to throw shit at you out of fear.

5) Lunch time is an entitlement, not a privilege. You are given 60mins for lunch, TAKE ALL OF IT, IT IS YOUR RIGHT.

er lol im damn sick of this. actually i hate to be like this but its damn hard to be nice in the army cause people just take advantage of you and abuse you and abuse you and abuse you and abuse you and abuse you.

Haha the june holidays are over. I remember last year at this time, the A levels were speeding right ahead towards us. It seemed only just awhile ago that I was worrying about the impending prelim exams and the big monster behind it, the actual A level exams.

I remember the days of mugging late into the night in school like it was yesterday. I remember comparing Math mock paper answers with Chang in the void deck at 10pm, and also the long Physics discussions with Zhenghao. And how the auntie at the snack stall remembered exactly how I liked my coffee (thick and creamy, "nong nong" as she would call it lol). I remember the secret balcony up at the top level of Oldham Wing where I could retreat to mug quietly if I got sick of the library, hub, canteen, void deck or lt3. I remember the Venti Starbucks Christmas Blend with warm milk that I would take back to school from the Holland V Starbucks almost every day. I remember the good times and the fellowship and the encouragement that we all gave one another towards the end.

All these are lost now. The army is a terribly depressing and un-motivating place to work in. Everyday we follow the same fucking routine and the only variation we get is the variety of sai gang which we have to do which is seemingly infinite and who's scope is endless. The people I meet here are mostly selfish and unkind bastards who only care about their own welfare, and saving their own asses when shit happens. Unit life truly sucks.

But lifes like that ORD is coming soon and God gave me an un-expected encouragement gift 3 days ago which I am very excited about and I really thank him for his grace in this matter.

Ok heres more pics of the days leading up to November 17:


over here is a 2 S paper student who's wasting his life away to stupid card games 1 month before the A levels start ( little did he know that for 2 years from jan07 he'd have all the time in the world to waste his life away)


another shot of the dumbass, this time joined by another dumbass looking over his shoulder admiring how dumb the stupid card game truly is.


a younger johnny boy putting all his effort into studying hard for the A levels. GOOD JOB JOHNNY SHOW THE 2 S PAPER FAGGOT WHAT YOU'RE MADE OF GOGOGO

ok sorry but all these random ACJC nostalgia is just rushing back to me today I dont know why. Must be cause of the emo-ness I've acquired from the army.

early weekend!

my weekend starts tomorrow YESSS! on leave on thursday and friday to enjoy the remaining days of freedom with the gang.



WED 20 JUNE, SEE YOU THERE.

haha i stole this from shengs blog but its so funny i have to put this here lol lol





anyways, back to work tomorrow... then the fun starts again after 6pm on wednesday. i used 3 days of my annual leave to spend time with my buddies so im going to make the best of these 3 days and have as much fun as i can!

bah, im too tired to think anymore... cant be bothered to end this post properly. good night people

oh crap the weekend passed so quickly again hahahaha